Are Men Recyclable??

So the last couple days have been interesting...interesting indeed. Four men from my past have contacted me...via text of course. Because who is actually brave enough to dial a woman's number after screwing her over?!

First, there was Old Friend. I don't believe I've ever discussed him here before. He was a part of my life back in my 20's. We met online, then met in person, hated one another, had great sex once or twice, and have remained in contact on and off since then...yeah, for about 12 years. Old Friend has told me a couple times over the past few years that he believes that he and I are meant to be, but the timing has never been right. Yeah, I know...excuses, excuses. He currently lives about a 2 hour drive from where I live. This is all due to the fact that he has been unemployed. You see he has a journalism degree...not a good look in times of the world wide web. Anyone can be a journalist! So he has been working little part time gigs here and there but can't seem to find anything steady. He told me he has been expanding his search into other areas, and that he really wants to move back into my area. He also said once he has a steady job, he plans to be with me. Hmm...

FWB has been a Facebook friend all this time, so we have kept tabs on one another via Facebook stalking. We shot a couple messages back and forth over the weekend. In the end, I went off explaining to him about how he disappointed me and that I had wanted and expected so much more. It was therapeutic in a way. It may not have affected him much, but I think it helped me. Yesterday, FWB sent me a text asking if I still want more from him. I laughed and asked if he was offering. He said, "yes, are you accepting?" He then went on to tell me that he is currently at the beach but didn't bother to let me know when he would return. I'm not sure how to take this.

I awoke to a text from MatchMan this morning, telling me we need to talk and to call him when I woke up...duh...the text itself woke me! He wanted to explain to me why we were no longer friends on Facebook. He said his girlfriend had gotten in his account and deleted me. All I could say to this was, "Way to be a man and let your woman control you!" I won't deny that it hurt. I still and probably will always have a soft spot for MatchMan. We talked for a while and caught up. It was kind of awkward.

ThugPassion was a man I also knew in my 20's, long before this blog was ever born. He and I had a little fling...that lasted over several years. There was obvious chemistry but little maturity on either of our parts. Neither of us communicated well, and we both had walls around us that hot sex couldn't pull down. I learned a few years back that he had gotten married. Yesterday, I logged into my messenger (which I hadn't used since about 2007), and he was on there! We had a nice little conversation and got a little closure to our old situation. He admitted he always has a thing for me but could never let himself go and love me. This seems to be a trend with me? Why has been so difficult for the men in my past to let go and be with me...truly be with me?

More Pity Please?

So I was looking at my label list, which includes all the men I've mentioned in this blog. Of those men, most have moved on while I've been stuck in Singleland. Check out this list, alphabetically of course:*

Doc- He is now engaged to a woman who doesn't live too far from me. I'm not quite sure when the wedding will take place.

Ex-Coworker- He is now in a serious relationship.

FWB- Also in a relationship. I found out that he and his girlfriend had a baby who died at birth a little over a year ago.

KH- In a serious relationship...complete with cute little pics all over Facebook.

MatchMan- In a serious relationship...

PoPo- Serious relationship...possibly married

Teacher Man- He is engaged and the wedding is scheduled to take place in a couple weeks.

young coworker- Got married last November.

So there you have it...maybe it wasn't them, but me.

* Most of the below information was gained via Facebook stalking. Don't judge me!

PMS Blues

This week, the main staple of my diet has been ice cream, followed closely by Jack Daniels and wine. Healthy, right? I'm blaming it on my hormones. Stupid stupid PMS. I've been a sad excuse of a human this weekend...gluttonous I've been. Pity party all around! In addition, I'm coming off a dating high from last week.

Remember last week? It seems so long ago. Unlike last week, this week has been dateless, unless you count last Saturday when Stalker came over to watch a DVD and Tuesday when he came over for a little bon voyage nookie before he took off to LA for the rest of the week to visit his old college buddy. That is it...seems so boring (not that Stalker nookie is ever boring) after my whirlwind of dates last week.

As for Coach, still no phone call. On Monday, he sent a text telling me that I may expect a bit much from him right now. I was confused, because the last I'd heard is that he was planning to make more time for "us". So I asked him what he meant, as all I've asked of him is communication...no pressure for time. He then responded with "I guess you're right...sorry." When I asked what exactly he was sorry for, he said "not communicating more", to which I said, "There's only one way to correct that!" That was Wednesday. Fast forward to Friday morning, I sent a text telling him good morning in a last ditch effort. Four hours later, he finally responded with "Hey! I hope you are enjoying your down time." Brush off much?? I still tried to stay chipper and told him I was having a girls afternoon including pedis and a movie. *chirp...chirp* And then there was nothing...hint taken. I'm not exactly sure where this possible relationship went south. We were communicating daily for over a month, and our last date went well. Sigh...

In addition to my pity party, I noticed today that MatchMan had deleted me from his Facebook friends. I also noticed he is now in a relationship. I don't know why that bothered me, but it did. It isn't that I want him back, but maybe because it shows that he has moved forward in life, and I'm still spinning my wheels.

Still breathing...barely

My, this past week has flown by. Work has been super busy (yay for standardized testing...not!). I've been trying to get ready for the move. I couldn't book the movers for next Saturday (the original move date), because they cost twice as much on the weekends. So they are coming first thing on Monday (12/21) morning. I'm going to move as much as possible in my car and my friend's husband's truck during the weekend though, because I also have to turn the keys to my current apartment in on Monday. Thanks to Stalker, I'm out almost $400 and will be busting my ass until the last minute. But anyhoo...speaking of assholes, he and I haven't spoken since he left my place after telling me he was going out of town instead of helping me move. Yeah, he offered to move me...I didn't ask. Talking about a let-down. He tried to hug me before he left last Sunday. I told him not to touch me. Oddly, it's been easier to stop speaking to him than I thought. That's probably because he not only disappointed me as a man, but as a friend. I really just want to tell him that he is a stupid and selfish LITTLE BOY! A grown man wouldn't have handled this situation by avoidance.

Hopefully, the E-Harmony guy and I will finally meet tomorrow. We have played phone tag all week and finally actually spoke last night. It was, um...awkward. He seemed preoccupied with something else, although he is the one who called me. We shall see...

MatchMan called last night also. I didn't answer. Ex-Coworker continues to text. Don't you love how they all keep coming back?

Distractions

I've decided that I need a distraction. A distraction from Stalker. I care about him, but I am realistic...it's not real likely that his "situation" will end anytime soon. So needless to say, it would be a safety-net for my feelings if there was someone else hanging around. I thought Bookstore Boy would be a possibility, but I never heard from him again after I called him a homophob! I've been reading what you all have said. And yes, it is unfair that he has his "ex" and I have no one to fall back on. At the time I met Stalker though, I was still hanging on to MatchMan. I've decided to join E-harmony.

I initially created my profile on there because of Stalker. We thought it would be fun if their personality matching expertise would match us up. We weren't matched. But I kept getting emails galore from the website. I decided to give it a try on the same day that Stalker was out of state. So far, it's a whole lotta uninteresting. I'm sorry...I can't vibe with just anyone. This is why Stalker is so unusual.

Ex-Coworker keeps texting and asking when he can see me. Again, he is a nice guy...not as bright as I prefer and we can get along only in short spurts of time. I'm wondering if it's even worth trying to plan some time together.

Filling in the Gaps

I thought I would share some other random boy news with you guys...just little tidbits not necessarily worthy of whole entries.

Ex-Coworker and I are back on good terms, although it took a while after I met MatchMan. He wasn't too keen on the idea of me canceling our plans in favor of another man, but when you won't commit those are the chances you take, right? So yeah, we talk occasionally and had even started planning a weekend to meet up again. Then my grandfather passed away and kinda foiled those plans for now. It's probably for the best anyway. I'm pretty sure that's a dead-end road, as far as anything substantial. He does continue to send me interesting pics via text though.*

Oh, and dear, sweet, lovable, distant, and cocky RM. Just when I think he is gone for good, he resurfaces. A few weeks ago, I made plans for a little nookie with Stalker to take place on a hump day**. While at work that afternoon, good ol RM sent a text asking how I was doing. I told him all was well, except the stress of work. He then proceeded to ask if he could come hang out with me that night...translation..."I'm horny and want to get nekkid with you!" I told him that I had plans that night, and his response was "Cancel! The girls will understand if you stand them up for a good dick down!" Oh my...I literally laughed out loud when I read that! Really?? If only he knew that I was turning him down for a better-bodied, better-dicked, 10-year his junior sexy thang! It truly amazes me just how good he thinks he has it. I mean the sex was good, but his attitude and conceit kills it all.

RM contacted me again*** just after I returned from my grandfather's funeral and told me he was there if I need him. For some reason, I doubt that. Fast-forward to today...I received a text from RM, and then the following conversation took place.

RM: Thinkin bout u. Sayin hello! Make a great Fri...
Me: Hello to you too! How are you?
RM: Hangin...been better but its fri. U?
Me: I'm living...
RM: Smile while u do it! U need help smiling....I will try
Me: Just what are you proposing?
RM: Nothin particular. Just offering to make u smile!
Me: Uh huh...I'm sure you had something in mind...
RM: Actually not this time. Concerned bout u. Know u having rough time w/grandfather death
Me: Yeah. Work has been rough too. What do you have going on this weekend?
RM: Fall fest tonight. Game tomorrow. Football banquet sunday. Nxt wkend Im free though.
Me: What is fall fest? Have 2 halloween parties next week if you wanna put on your costume!
RM: School fall festival. Trick or treat
Me: Guess that means you don't wanna put on your costume?
RM: Nooo thx. lol
Me: Well I invited you to parties. Doubt I'll dress up myself.
RM: Golf nxt sat am. Parties when?
Me: Sat nite
RM: Well we do fri nite. lol
Me: Don't worry about it.
RM: U dont want to get together fri nite?
Me: Well I did ask you to halloween parties
RM: Dont do halloween...not my thang. Sorry
Me: Not about halloween...about hanging out together...what I would like to do. You know friends are supportive like that...
RM: True so fri nite
Me: No. I just said I would like you to go to parties with me. That is what I would like. But you are too selfish just to give a little I guess.
RM: Not selfish. I dont do halloween & wouldnt have a good time. Just honest
Me: Sure u r. Everything always has to be on ur terms. They are just parties where ppl will be drinking and playing games. But it's cool...
RM: Wow sorry u feel that way

So yeah, what do you think about that convo?

MatchMan called and texted last week. He wanted to see me this past weekend, but I just couldn't do it. He told me he just wanted to see me, hug me, and hold my hand. I just don't feel emotionally available to him.

And you know I couldn't go without mentioning Stalker. He left yesterday, driving the U-Haul for his "ex" and her big move. I did receive a text from him..."I made it safely". I was surprised to get even that. Stalker told me on Wednesday night that he would return sometime today (Friday). I have yet to hear from him, but then I'm not surprised by that.

* oh so naughty!
** What better day for nookie??
*** Again...just when you least expect him!

Ain't No Sunshine...

This past weekend I watched Sunshine Cleaning. I don't know how many of you have seen it, but it left me speechless. And I'm not sure I meant that in a good way. I got it because I thought it would be a fun little dark comedy, but it wasn't. It was dark, almost too dark. Well hell, it was like real life!

These lines spoken by Rose, Amy Adams's character, hit waaaay too close to home for me... "There's not a lot that I am good at. But I'm good at getting guys to want me. Not date me, or marry me, but want me." I have expressed this thought in so many words to friends of mine, but this character summed it up quite nicely. Men rarely want to stay in the "friend zone" with me, nor are they ever "at a place in life for a relationship".* What is it about some women that makes them fall into this category? What makes us undesirable for marriage and/or long term relationships? And before you answer that it could be the way we dress or carry ourselves, please be aware that I am more conservative in my dress than most single women I know. I believe there is a way to be sexy without seeming trampy. I am not a fan of flaunting excessive skin. I don't talk dirty**, nor do I have a reputation for giving it up on the first night. I do like to have fun and laugh, trying not to pressure anyone into anything they don't want. Men have often told me I'm "like one of the guys, but sexier". Um yeah, ok...

Anywho...MatchMan is officially a thing of the past. I'm done for good. Really. Nothing new took place between us. He told me he loves me,***but he can't be the man he needs to be for me. No shit, Sherlock! I figured that out a while back! What took his slow ass so long?

As for Stalker, he is still hanging around. We like to bowl together. And yeah, the tension is gone, because I broke my promise to myself and to you guys. I gave him a taste of the cookie, and he likes it. Yeah, yeah, please no speeches. I'm very aware that it probably wasn't the best decision I've ever made, but let me say it all started with a little too much Jack Daniels in both our systems one Friday night. I was lonely...he was lonely, and now neither of us can get enough. I'm just enjoying it for what it is. Blame it on my inner Cougar.

*conveniently!
**most of the time
***yeah, ok whatever

And then there was none...

For all those worried about the Stalker getting the cookie, worry no longer! There was never any intention of snack time any time soon! The young'n must have found a new cookie for which to hunger. He stood me up on Sunday night. Well, he didn't stand me up. He sent a text that told me he had to go to a VMA party and wasn't sure when he could be over. I just told him not to worry about it. Haven't heard too much from him since.

I'm still on break from MatchMan. Work has been figuratively kicking my ass lately, and I've been making boo-boos! So first on my list is cleaning up my mess-ups at work. Yay.

Oh yeah, happy hump day! Here's a little sexy for ya!

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The Stalker's Story

So you want to know more about the Stalker, huh? After meeting this scrumptious young man* over at my girlfriend's place, he found me on a popular social networking site. How, you ask? So did I! He knew my first name and my friend's first name. He later told me that he looked up my friend's profile first, because she has an unusual name. He knew I would be on her friends list. He also said he went to my employer's website to look for employees with my first name. Determined little booger, isn't he?

So began the text-affair. It went on for two days. On the third day, I asked him to tell me something funny because I had a rough day at work. Instead, he told me to come outside my apartment. Yeah! There he was! He told me he thought that a hug would be better than a funny text message. Aww...how sweet! But wait a durn minute! "How the hell did he know where I live?", I thought to myself. Hmm... So, me being me, I asked! Of course, he knew which apartment complex I live in, because my girlfriend lives in the same one**, just below his buddy who was having the cookout when we met. He said he just drove around until he saw my car. Should I be freaked or flattered? To tell the truth, I was a little of both.

Yes, before you all start calling me a cheater, he does know about MatchMan, and we have done nothing physically beyond a hug. He has a "situation" himself. Brace yourselves. He lives with his ex-girlfriend, who will be moving to another state next month. Wait! That's not all! You know I can't meet a desirable man without some kind of catch! He says that they only broke up in order "to grow as individuals". Um, excuse me, but how is that possible if they still live together? Wait!!! It gets even better!

Stalker says he and his ex may get back together officially in the next couple weeks before she moves hundreds of miles away for her new job. Is it just me, or does that sound bass-akwards? My thinking on this is, "If it ain't working while you live in the same city in the same home, how the hell will it work long distance?" I mean, even the BEST of relationships are difficult when they are long distance. And of course, I said this to him. His answer? "We will revisit it to be sure it is the right decision." I guess when you are young, dumb, and in love, you must learn the hard way. The two of them are still living together, but not "together". They have also made a deal not to become physical with other people until they know what they are doing, although they aren't having sex anymore. He claims she is afraid it will cloud her judgement about him. All too damn confusing to me...sounds like she doesn't want him but doesn't want anyone else to have him either.

Stalker and I have decided to be "just friends"..."just friends" with a whole lotta sexual tension and innuendoes bouncing in the air all around us, even through text messages. We have hung out a couple times a week since we first met. One good thing has come of it...I've developed a love of bowling. Nope, I had never bowled until two weeks ago, when he taught me! Such fun! We have a TV date tonight for True Blood.

As for MatchMan, I've told him I need a little time to think. How do you let someone go when you truly care about him, but you know he may not be the best thing for you in the long run? He has some life-restructuring to complete, and I'm not sure I have what it takes to hang in there. I'm at a point in my life that I need a man who has it together already.

*8-9 years actually!
**in a different building...it's a large complex

I've been a bad, bad blogger...

Hey y'all! I apologize for the delay. I've had internet issues, and I've gone back to work in the last month. Please do forgive me! So I have a lot of catching up to do...

MatchMan is out of jail now and has been for about 3 weeks. Unfortunately, he lost his job while locked up. He has been frantically searching and has even had some interviews, but no job offers! Needless to say, he has fallen into a deep depression. Oh, what a strain on a new relationship! I'm not sure where we stand, and I can't seem to bring myself to leave either. He hasn't exactly been the nicest guy and definitely not the same guy I first met. It's all understandable. I don't think I would be Susie Sunshine if I'd been locked up and lost my means of survival.

He's told me he doesn't want to get too attached to me because he is afraid he is going to go right back to jail. Okay, so I guess I should share why he was there to begin with at this point. It has to do with child support. There's no need for specifics, but if he doesn't find another job (like yesterday!) he's going right back next month. So yeah, there is tension.

In other man news, there's a new one hanging around. During one of my and MatchMan's recent arguments a couple weeks ago, I went to a friend's apartment to visit. Conveniently, her man-neighbor was having a little gathering of other menses and throwing some meat on the grill. One of the bbq goers struck up a little conversation with my girlfriend and me. This young man (yes, young!) was quite the charmer....mmmmm good too! I had a little alcohol in my system, and I was in super-hyper-flirt gear! This young'n told me I looked like a friend of his, and he wanted to take a picture of me and send it to some guy. Being the smart lady that I am, I explained to this hot little young thang that I wasn't in picture-taking form (I looked a hot mess because I had been out running around all day!), and I would send one from my cell to his. Yeah, genius way to get the digits...

So all this guy had after that night was my first name, my cell number, and my place of employment. So how did he find me on Facebook the next day? From hence forth, he shall be called "Stalker".

And in further news, FWB has been trying to get back in the picture. I'm feeling weak! As much as I care for MatchMan, I do have needs. I know how selfish that sounded, but it is true. Right now, I'm not sexually and/or emotionally fulfilled.

And the countdown continues...

This is day 19 and counting. MatchMan has called a few times during his forced "vacation". We have also written letters. It's all been quite romantic, considering the circumstances. For the first week or so, I didn't hear a peep from him. I later found out that he was too proud to contact me and was embarrassed. He assures me that he will never go back there again. He can't handle all the other men in there. He isn't the jailbird type. He isn't cut out for being the "tough guy". I knew this when he went in, and it had me somewhat worried. He is the kind of guy who is always laughing and cracking jokes. He is sensitive to others' needs and feelings. All that being said, he is hanging in there, but it is definitely wearing on him. In his first letter, he sent a list of "demands" upon his release...some naughty and some Rated G.

RM still continues to send text messages. The last one just said, "I hope you are well."

If it wasn't for bad luck....

I'd have no luck at all. I have decided that RM is a controlling, narcissistic, arrogant bastard. I know you're thinking, "What the hell took you so long to figure that out?" I guess I just had to learn the good old-fashioned way....that would be the HARD way! Again, we had a text convo a few days ago, during which he wanted to share his views on where he stood on relationships (not that it really mattered to me). He was explaining that he never asked about other guys because of his "confidence". When I asked what he meant, I received this response.

RM: If I was ready 4 a relationship, u would be w/me. Period. That being said, he got u. I will continue my quest 4 another homie, lover, friend as u call it lol

That surpasses confidence into the area of arrogance! Really?? I wanted to say "You aren't that damn hot motherfucker!" But I bit my tongue (uh, texting finger??) and just gave him a "Is that right?" instead. He went on to tell me that he just wasn't ready to jump right into a relationship, to which I responded, "I never asked you to." This next text was so fucking cheesy, I had to end all communication!

RM: Well drop the zero. Get w/a hero & meet me ur place tomorrow. Do some makin' up & movin' forward! How bout all day & night lovin'. Not fuckin' as u call it.

All I could do is laugh at that one! As for me calling it fucking, yeah I do! I call it what it is. If it's just fucking, that's exactly what I call it!

As for MatchMan, last Sunday night was the night for consummation. Yep, we did the dirty and it was goooood. Too bad he went to jail Tuesday afternoon! Yeah, you read that right, no need to back up. MatchMan is in jail for the next 30 days. I would rather not get into why, because that is his personal business. He isn't some hardened murderer or anything. He did make some mistakes that anyone could have fallen victim to. That is all I'm going to say about it. So yeah, we officially had the talk and became exclusive on Sunday night, and by Tuesday night, he was locked up. What tangled webs, huh?

I think I may be off the market...

Things are going almost TOO well with MatchMan. We still talk on the phone for an insane amount of hours everyday. We have also spent as much time as possible together. BUT July is his month to be a full-time daddy. He has an 11 year old daughter, and he sees her quite regularly as it is, but he has her full-time this month. This has slowed down our progress a bit, which may be a good thing. Even though I happily accept this, he does not. This past Sunday, he called and asked me if I wanted to go to a movie with him and his daughter on Monday afternoon. I was shocked that he would want me to meet her so early. I mean, she had been around when we spoke on the phone a few times, so she did know OF me. I asked over and over if he was sure he was ready for this, and he acknowledged that it was early, but said he thought it was a good idea to move forward.

MatchMan and daughter picked me up at my apartment on Monday afternoon for our "date". She is a cute little thing...adorable really. My inner-teacher loves the fact that she is well-behaved and well-spoken. She is polite, and she loves her daddy to death. After some video games and a movie, we went to eat and then headed back to my place. She loved my cats, probably more than I do. They stayed at my apartment for about an hour so she could play with them. I was surprised that he showed affection toward me in front of the kid. He held my hand a couple times, put his arm around me while we sat on the couch, and gave me a quick kiss goodbye as they were leaving. About an hour after they left, MatchMan sent me a text that said, "She liked you and the cats. Good job!" Now I'm beginning to feel a tinge of nervousness about our upcoming date this weekend. It's THAT TIME. We have done a whole lot of "making out", but we haven't been horizontal together yet, if ya know what I mean? We'll see what the future holds on Sunday night! A friend of his is in town for the weekend, and there is a pool party for his daughter's birthday on Saturday. I've also scheduled a girls' night in for Saturday, so unfortunately, Sunday is the best we can do right now.

As for RM, I finally told him I was seeing someone, and he responded, "Oh, that's why you've been ignoring me." I really didn't much to say to that, as RM will argue with a tree if the breeze blows its leaves in the opposite direction. Two days later, he actually DIALED MY NUMBER!!! That's one of the things that annoys me about him...he constantly wants to have FULL conversations via text. When I didn't answer, he then sent a text saying, "Hello...you could say HELLO sometimes!" Unfortunately, I was on my "date" with MatchMan and his daughter at the time. I didn't see the missed call and text until several hours later, because my phone was silenced. I sent an apology text telling him that I was in a movie when he called; I would've called but it was kind of late. This is how the rest of the text convo went down:

RM: Thanks for the invite

Me: Well, the guy I was with wouldn't have appreciated that too much. I met his daughter today.

RM: I hope he's serious introducing u to his daughter so early

Me: We'll see

RM: I called u today and the other day to discuss where I am w/ relationships and possibly entertain giving it a try but the other possible chick and u r now off limits so I guess Im back to bein me...its cool tho

I'm not going to lie. I didn't respond, and I haven't called him. It's funny how he never once wanted a relationship until I met MatchMan's daughter (note: I've NEVER met RM's kids in all the years I've known him!). It's also interesting to me that there is suddenly another "possible chick"...all laughable, really.

Oh yeah, I told the Ex-Coworker that I had met someone, and I didn't feel right about having him in town for the weekend the weekend before he was to arrive. He didn't take it well at all. He didn't believe that I had just met MatchMan and accused me of lying to him the past few months. Of course, now he refuses to talk to me.

Text me, baby....text meeee!

So this is the text conversation I had with RM yesterday. His last couple of statements really get under my skin. I love how he assumes (probably because I'm a woman) that what I'm telling him is a "phase" or "mood swing". This is why I cut the convo short. Well, I really was in the car, heading to the doctor office by that point. Oh yeah, and please excuse any typos and/or slang. I have fumble fingers on the Crackberry.


RM: Good a.m. Too hot in da a.m? Too hot in da afternoon? Too hot in da evening? Whats up, Big Poppa gotta have it! Oh yea I would like to c u 2!

Me: Suuure u want to see me...nice after-thought.

RM: Sure i do. But not gonna lie on the other part either! They go hand in hand

Me: Well I guess I shouldn't lie either. I'm bored. Yeah the sex is great but I need more...like convo, phone calls, qt. Maybe I'm more of a relationship type...
Not saying u have to be the 1 to give that to me. I know u don't have time for/want that so it's cool. I just know I'm nit happy being alone all the time.

RM: Understandable. Im tryin ti fit in when & how i can. My a.m appt cancelled. Have some time. Can come by, take a zrytec...lol. Hang out talk. Maybe time 4 a movie?

Me: See that's it...I don't want to be "fit" in when u have cancellation. I need/want to be a priority for some1. U have fam and kids. I have nothing. I would like my chance to be special. I have dr appt to get to right now anyway. Sorry.

RM: Ok. I dont know if u havin one of ur u wanna be in a relationship moments or if this is permanent. However i understand what u r sayin. Regardless im here as a friend if nothin else. Make a great day!

Me: I told u in the past that I would like a relationship. Just always had no prob w/ FWB situation until I realized I'm unhappy w/ just a part of a man.

RM: Ok. When did u realize u r unhappy w/part of a man? Bcuz in the past u also said u didnt want the drama of a relationship & a man smothering u 24/7. Thats why i asked if this is permanent or another mood swing.

Me: 1 can have a relationship w/out drama and smothering.

RM: Ok. I think u r bored & feelin emotional. No school right now. No hectic schedule & want to fill the void. Forgive me if im wrong. How can i help, if i can help?

Me: Driving now. Talk later.

As for MatchMan, I had to postpone our date last night, because I've been sick with some sort of stomach virus for 3 days now. Icky poo! We decided to reschedule for Saturday! I'm sooo excited and hate that I had to reschedule! I'll keep you updated!

Sexy Song of the Week and MatchMan

Happy hump day, everybody!! This week's song is an oldie but goodie! Yeah, old school sexy is a good thing too! Enjoy!

Maurice Williams & The Zodiacs - STAY.
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MatchMan and I went out to a movie Monday night. A good time was had by all! Yes friends, we will be going on a second date Thursday night! I think stripper heels and conservative attire is where it's at! ;-)

MatchMan was the same in person as on the phone. We are still doing the teen phone thing. I'm trying to ween that down a little though, because you know what they say about too much of a good thing. It is a good thing, but I don't want it to burn out before it really gets started.

Sooo...I have Ex-Coworker coming in town for the 4th of July weekend...what to do??

Match Me!

Earlier this week, I took the plunge and joined Match.com. A couple of my friends have had some luck on there and have been urging me to join for some time now. Honestly?? I didn't want to pay for it! Yeah, yeah call me a cheap bastard (umm...bitch??)!! I bit the bullet and pulled out the credit card.

I've had quite a few responses on there. Some might even be worth meeting! One, in particular, has stolen my interest. He was actually the first to contact me. We will call him MatchMan. MatchMan and I had our first phone conversation Thursday evening. That convo lasted into the wee hours of the morning! I know...that's teen phone call status! And if you know me, you know that I don't do that crap. I really can't stand talking on the phone. Since then, we have been non-stop texting and talking on the phone. I just hope this guy captures my interest half this much when we finally do meet in person. When will that be, you ask? Possibly tomorrow night. If not then, we plan to get together Tuesday. We both already had other obligations for the weekend. I don't remember the last time a man made me laugh so much, and if you know me, that is definitely a prerequisite for a relationship.