tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-73156886577454662582024-03-14T05:33:03.941-04:00So Why Are You Single?An inside look at why an attractive, educated, professional, 30-something woman is STILL single!SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.comBlogger211125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-1751224270004307562011-10-25T20:45:00.004-04:002011-10-25T20:51:20.154-04:00My WeekendWell it wasn't as busy I thought it would be. There were no dates and no haunted houses. Clean cut and Bad ended up having to work, and the other guy actually "forgot" we had plans! Both of them were sending me texts and calling all week long. Then suddenly on Friday afternoon, my phone went silent. Forgetful (as he will be called from now on) did apologize. He even offered to be my massage homework, because he knows I have to do two a week. Gee...wasn't that sweet of him?SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-59236991431564721602011-10-22T01:20:00.002-04:002011-10-22T01:21:29.774-04:00I lied...not purposely or anything. But it looks as if my 2 dates has become ZERO dates. :-( And I'm not even sure why.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-5298757214805737902011-10-21T09:39:00.002-04:002011-10-21T09:44:52.716-04:002 Date WeekendYeah, I have two dates this weekend. I have a first date with a new dude tonight. We met a while back on POF, but we never actually met in person. We have emailed and sent texts a few times over the last couple of months. We finally moved to phone conversations. From our text conversations, I wasn't all that interested. Once we spoke on the phone, I thought a little more of him. So we have decided to have a meet and greet tonight when I get off from work.<br /><br />Tomorrow evening, I'll be watching college football with Clean-cut and Bad. We are also talking haunted houses on Sunday, if he doesn't have to work. Yay! So I'm off to work and to enjoy my busy, busy weekend!SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-52603656990848334032011-10-19T15:42:00.003-04:002011-10-21T09:39:38.712-04:00To All The Boys I've Loved Before....<iframe frameborder="0" width="480" height="276" src="http://www.dailymotion.com/embed/video/xctaab"></iframe><br /><a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xctaab_katy-perry-hot-n-cold_music" target="_blank">Katy Perry - Hot N Cold</a> <i>by <a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/EMI_Music" target="_blank">EMI_Music</a></i><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Hot N Cold</span> by Katy Perry<br /><br /><br />You change your mind<br />Like a girl changes clothes<br />Yeah you, PMS<br />Like a bitch<br />I would know<br /><br />And you over think<br />Always speak<br />Cryptically<br /><br />I should know<br />That you're no good for me<br /><br />[CHORUS]<br />Cause you're hot then you're cold<br />You're yes then you're no<br />You're in then you're out<br />You're up then you're down<br />You're wrong when it's right<br />It's black and it's white<br />We fight, we break up<br />We kiss, we make up<br />(you) You don't really want to stay, no<br />(but you) But you don't really want to go-o<br />You're hot then you're cold<br />You're yes then you're no<br />You're in then you're out<br />You're up then you're down<br /><br />We used to be<br />Just like twins<br />So in sync<br />The same energy<br />Now's a dead battery<br />Used to laugh bout nothing<br />Now you're plain boring<br /><br />I should know that<br />You're not gonna change<br /><br />[CHORUS]<br /><br />Someone call the doctor<br />Got a case of a love bi-polar<br />Stuck on a roller coaster<br />Can't get off this ride<br /><br />You change your mind<br />Like a girl changes clothes<br /><br />[CHORUS 2:]<br />Cause you're hot then you're cold<br />You're yes then you're no<br />You're in then you're out<br />You're up then you're down<br />You're wrong when it's right<br />It's black and it's white<br />We fight, we break up<br />We kiss, we make up<br />You're hot then you're cold<br />You're yes then you're no<br />You're in then you're out<br />You're up then you're down<br />You're wrong when it's right<br />It's black and it's white<br />We fight, we break up<br />We kiss, we make up<br />(you) You don't really want to stay, no<br />(but you) But you don't really want to go-o<br />You're hot then you're cold<br />You're yes then you're no<br />You're in then you're out<br />You're up then you're down, down...SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-58367335507906225242011-10-16T18:37:00.003-04:002011-10-16T18:46:50.699-04:00Saturday night=Date nightI went on a date last night. It was a first date with a guy I met on Match. He definitely seems to be my "type" or at least what I tend to find attractive in a man. He is clean-cut looking with a little edge to him. By this, I mean he has tattoos. They aren't obvious tattoos. He hides them, like I do. For some reason, I have a thing for nice guys with a little "bad boy" hidden inside them. <br /><br />Anyway, we met up at a sports bar for dinner, drinks, and college football. This also makes me a happy girl! He is about fours my junior, which isn't so bad. He is professionally employed and pretty intelligent, with a great sense of humor. We've made plans to see one another next weekend. We've been talking haunted houses and/or roller coasters! Hells yeah! :) <br /><br />Oh yeah, FWB has been texting again. And yes, I respond but take any and every thing he says with a grain of salt. When he found out I was thinking about getting a roommate, he offered to move in with me. Uh yeah, sure...right, like that will ever happen.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-89251944442197350872011-10-12T13:14:00.001-04:002011-10-12T13:24:16.693-04:00Happy Hump Day!Adele's voice gives me chills every time I hear it! This is such a beautiful song...<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Someone Like You</span><br /><br /><iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/hLQl3WQQoQ0" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br /><br />I heard that you settled down<br />That you found a girl and you're married now.<br />I heard that your dreams came true.<br />Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.<br /><br />Old friend, why are you so shy?<br />Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.<br /><br />I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited<br />But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.<br />I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded<br />That for me it isn't over.<br /><br />Never mind, I'll find someone like you<br />I wish nothing but the best for you too<br />Don't forget me, I beg<br />I remember you said,<br />"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,<br />Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"<br />Yeah.<br /><br />You know how the time flies<br />Only yesterday was the time of our lives<br />We were born and raised<br />In a summer haze<br />Bound by the surprise of our glory days<br /><br />I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited<br />But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.<br />I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded<br />That for me it isn't over.<br /><br />Never mind, I'll find someone like you<br />I wish nothing but the best for you too<br />Don't forget me, I beg<br />I remember you said,<br />"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."<br /><br />Nothing compares<br />No worries or cares<br />Regrets and mistakes<br />They are memories made.<br />Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?<br /><br />Never mind, I'll find someone like you<br />I wish nothing but the best for you<br />Don't forget me, I beg<br />I remember you said,<br />"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."<br /><br />Never mind, I'll find someone like you<br />I wish nothing but the best for you too<br />Don't forget me, I beg<br />I remember you said,<br />"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,<br />Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-28725891215724948392011-10-09T23:16:00.007-04:002011-10-10T01:18:25.512-04:00Sometimes Good People Have Sad LivesAmongst de-junking my apartment, setting up my massage table, consulting with my best friend about her issues with her son's school system, and talking for an hour with my grandmother, I've been watching Brothers & Sisters on Netflix today. In the last episode I watched, Justin was feeling down because he was turning 30 and he was alone. His brother, Kevin, told him, "Sometimes good people have sad lives, but you aren't one of them." I think I may be one of them.<br /><br />Every man I meet is totally wrong for me. Okay...maybe not every ONE, although I have met some doozies in my dating career! But I tend to mess up the decent ones with my insecurities. I think I have abandonment issues (thanks dad), so with my "witty sarcasm" I manage to push away any man that may have potential. I lash out with accusatory remarks when I feel like someone is "abandoning" me again. Of course, that just pushes people away more. This only happens with men...not girlfriends, family, or coworkers. Maybe I'm so jaded that I just can't believe that the "real thing" exists for me. I know so few TRULY HAPPY couples that it seems futile sometimes, even though I'm about as lonely as one can get. I have trust issues after being lied to time and time again. I am trying to keep my heart open and my feelings honest (sometimes too honest). Just some food for thought. I've been living in my head after watching too much Brothers & Sisters.<br /><br />And then after all this thought, I read this quote somewhere: “Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.”- unknown This is so, so true of me.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-26492239581596950292011-10-05T16:12:00.002-04:002011-10-05T16:16:04.670-04:00This is how I feel most of the time.I just watched last night's Glee, and this song (sung by Rachel and Mercedes on the show) struck me. It could have been written about me.<br /><br /><iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/i4mkRwkQRoQ" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br /><br />Irene Cara<br />Out Here Own My Own (from <span style="font-style:italic;">Fame</span>) <br /><br /><br />Sometimes I wonder where I've been<br />Who I am <br />Do I fit in. <br />Make believin' is hard alone, <br />Out here on my own <br /><br />We're always provin' who we are <br />Always reachin' for the risin' star <br />To guide me far <br />And shine me home <br />Out here on my own <br /><br />When I'm down and feelin' blue <br />I close my eyes so I can be with you <br />Oh, baby, be strong for me <br />Baby, belong to me <br />Help me through <br />Help me need you <br /><br />Until the morning sun appears <br />Making light of all my fears <br />I dry the tears <br />I've never shown <br />Out here on my own <br /><br />When I'm down and feelin' blue <br />I close my eyes so I can be with you <br />Oh, baby, be strong for me <br />Baby, belong to me <br />Help me through <br />Help me need you <br /><br />Sometimes I wonder where I've been <br />Who I am <br />Do I fit in <br />I may not win <br />But I can't be thrown <br />Out here on my own <br />On my ownSaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-36284073328496864902011-09-22T19:04:00.004-04:002011-09-22T19:09:30.807-04:00New JobYep...I've found one. It's only part time, and it's pretty crappy pay, but it's a job...at a SPA!! I'm going to be a receptionist. Luckily, it's just around the corner from my apartment, so I will save on gas. I start school on October 1 (yeah, a Saturday!), and I can't wait! I've never been so excited about being a broke college student! You would not believe how relieved I already feel just being away from the education system.<br /><br />Stalker, of course, is still hanging around. Sometimes, there's sex, and sometimes there isn't. Either way it is comfortable. He makes me smile.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-69303681850700836252011-09-09T14:47:00.004-04:002011-09-10T00:28:29.263-04:00I quit...I did! I quit! I quit my job! I'm currently one of the unemployed in America. Due to my severe allergies, my doctor required me to move classrooms. The system wasn't willing to accommodate to a degree at which I would be comfortable, so I was left with the option to resign and become eligible for unemployment. Yay! I'm relieved and afraid at once.<br /><br />I'll be starting a massage therapy program next month. Just pray that I get some sort of job to pay the bills.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">*This post has been shortened and changed to protect my anonymity as much as possible. Excuse the lack of detail.</span>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-39337000699893793002011-08-14T16:21:00.002-04:002011-08-14T16:27:04.740-04:00All Work and No PlayObviously, I'm back at work. This is it. It will be my last year. I can do it no longer. It sucks my soul, my spirit, and my love of life from me. If I could afford to do so now, I just wouldn't return again. Unfortunately, I'm not in the position to do so. The state has taken over my school under the guise of a grant. The teachers are constantly required to write up reports, crunch data, and attend "professional learning", leaving no time to actually teach. Until this country can get the state of education right and make the children the priority and not test scores, I can't be a part of it. We are teaching students how to take a test, not how to become productive members of society. This was not my goal 10 years ago when I first stepped into the class room. It's breaking my heart.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-67626891859174051492011-07-27T19:37:00.001-04:002011-07-27T19:39:36.366-04:00Old School Sexy<span style="font-style:italic;">Since I've Been Loving You</span> by Led Zeppelin<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/Bkjv9SscotY" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Working from seven to eleven every night, <br />It really makes life a drag, I don't think that's right. <br />I've really been the best, the best of fools, I did what I could, yeah.<br />'Cause I love you, baby, How I love you, darling, How I love you, baby, <br />I'm in love with you, girl, little girl. <br />But baby, Since I've Been Loving You, yeah. I'm about to lose my worried mind, ah, yeah. <br /><br />Everybody trying to tell me that you didn't mean me no good. <br />I've been trying, Lord, let me tell you, Let me tell you I really did the best I could.<br />I've been working from seven to eleven every night, I said It kinda makes my life a drag, drag, drag, drag..<br />Lord, yeah, that ain't right... no no <br />Since I've Been Loving You, I'm about to lose my worried mind. <br /><br />Said I've been crying, yeah, oh my tears they fell like rain, <br />Don't you hear them, Don't you hear them falling, <br />Don't you hear them, Don't you hear them falling. <br /><br />Do you remember mama, when I knocked upon your door? <br />I said you had the nerve to tell me you didn't want me no more, yeah <br />I open my front door, I hear my back door slam, <br />You know I must have one of them new fangled, new fangled back doors man. <br /><br />I've been working from seven, seven, seven, to eleven every night and It kinda makes my life a drag... <br />a drag, drag, oh yeah it makes a drag.<br />Baby, Since I've Been Loving You, I'm about to lose, I'm about lose lose my worried mind.<br />Just One more, Just One more<br />Oh yeah, since I've Been Loving You, I'm gonna lose my worried mind.<br /></span>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-2996670580515950612011-07-26T18:31:00.004-04:002011-07-26T18:47:20.133-04:00Friends with Benefits?Have you all gone to see this movie?? If not, run out and see it now! Not only is Justin Timberlake just ridiculously yummy, he and Mila Kunis are also ridiculously hilarious! Of course, it had a typical and predictable Hollywood ending. But all the stuff leading up to it will keep you laughing and even empathizing with the characters.<br /><br />Needless to say, this movie also reminded me of a couple of "relationships" I've had. *cough* FWB...Stalker *cough* I'm sure neither of those will have that nice, tidy Hollywood ending at the end of two hours of laughs and one little touching visit home to the family. <br /><br />So...what's been going on? Oh, a whole lot of nothing. I've returned to work as of last week, so it's back to my busy busy schedule. I will make it a point to make time to relieve stress and relax a little this school year. <br /><br />Needy and I were supposed to meet up last Tuesday night, but I didn't hear from him until 9:30 that night. He had the nerve to ask if I still wanted to get together. He claimed that he had sent a text letting me know he had to attend his sister's last minute birthday dinner. I never received said text. I'm not saying he didn't send it...I'm just sayin'. So, he asked for another chance and if we could meet up that weekend. He called me Thursday morning around 10:00. I sent a text telling him that I couldn't talk, because I was in training. He replied with, "I was just saying hey! I was thinking about this weekend." I responded later that evening asking what he was thinking about the weekend. Saturday around 5:45 PM, I got a text from him saying, "Hey what are you up to? Want to catch a movie or something?" Um...way to wait until the last minute, buddy! By this time I was out with a girlfriend. I told him that I had made other plans since I hadn't heard back from him in two days. Since then, he has been blowing up my phone daily!SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-75830704303937272592011-07-20T14:23:00.002-04:002011-07-20T14:25:14.876-04:00It's a Hump Day Thing!<span style="font-style:italic;">All Night Thing</span> by Temple of the Dog<br /><br />Anytime Chris Cornell opens his mouth to sing, things get sexy!<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/SMfUoJ7EYN8" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-48855075440324962272011-07-19T12:45:00.004-04:002011-07-19T13:00:54.141-04:00Sad Face<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIzp2FXFRSQfeyPxjXvNcQo1vGvYLATeNei669r1yw5vZVeLm0CupMp5c5WrpMMR5T5ngB3W8CMmDMrQyKlHQDYQBUb7ql17GmaWZkXEgUdtPDzQNkgwAD9LYdh2JBBW6BMyT7EKYVrB8/s1600/sad_face.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgIzp2FXFRSQfeyPxjXvNcQo1vGvYLATeNei669r1yw5vZVeLm0CupMp5c5WrpMMR5T5ngB3W8CMmDMrQyKlHQDYQBUb7ql17GmaWZkXEgUdtPDzQNkgwAD9LYdh2JBBW6BMyT7EKYVrB8/s400/sad_face.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5631109448472346642" /></a><br /><br />Ex-Coworker didn't make it to visit this past weekend, due to both of our schedules. He had to attend a wedding Saturday, so he wouldn't have gotten to my place until the wee hours of the morning Sunday. I had to get up and go to a Sunday lunch for my gay who is moving away this week. That was an all afternoon affair. Ex-Coworker and I decided it would be best if he plan a weekend just for us, so we can actually spend time together and talk to see what may be between us. When that weekend will be I'm not sure. Hopefully soon...<br /><br />I got another bite on POF, but he doesn't seem real smart. He is a cutie though. We have spoken on the phone and sent texts over the last few days. We have yet to meet. When I mentioned meeting up tonight, he seemed bothered by the fact that I was only willing to give him a couple of hours. He called me "one of those". He said he doesn't understand the point of the "coffee date". He said that every women he met lately suggested that. I explained that the women wanted to just do a short meet and greet, so that they could get a feel for him without being stuck in a bad date all night. He then told me that if he can have a decent conversation on the phone with someone that he knew he would enjoy a "real date" with them. Needy much? Henceforth, he will be called "Needy".SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-44379396536537024412011-07-15T15:03:00.005-04:002011-07-15T15:22:25.222-04:00Wish me luck...So Ex-Coworker is due to arrive tomorrow night. I'm not sure how I feel about it yet. Guess I'll figure that out when I actually lay eyes on him...heh, I doubt that's all I'll lay on him! Yeah, yeah, I have the humor of a 13 year old boy at times. Lucky him...he will get to hang with my gays for the going away lunch we are having. But we are doing dinner with a lovely couple Sunday night. I'm sure he will like that much better, since it will involve tequila and straight people. I don't think Ex-Coworker is homophobic or anything, but he is definitely a manly man. Thank goodness he is an open-minded one.<br /><br />Still no word from FWB. I love how he is willing to make something work between us. Oh, and yeah, that was most definitely sarcasm. No word from Coach or Old Friend the last couple days. But I didn't really expect anymore than that. Stalker has become a texting buddy for the time being, I guess. That's about it in my world of dating!<br /><br />Oh...last night the gays, the other hag, and I went to a special double feature of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Parts 1 and 2. The theater showed Part 1 at 9:00 and Part 2 at midnight. I thought it was rather fun. It is so interesting to see all the people who show up, dressed as the characters for the movies. I saw some very creative ones. I just wish I'd had my camera with me!<br /><br />Have a fantabulous weekend, Blogland!SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-55535739425383926872011-07-13T12:02:00.003-04:002011-07-13T12:12:10.217-04:00Here an ex, there an ex, everywhere an exSo I finally received a text from FWB yesterday. He told me that he was serious about wanting to actually pursue something more with me. Then, of course, he disappeared after a couple text exchanges. So there are still no answers. I won't believe crap from him until he actually acts on it. If he really wanted more, he would like maybe ask me out or something?! Silly little boys...<br /><br />Ex-Coworker is scheduled to hit town in the next few days. Again, this is something I will believe when I see it. In the meantime, Old Friend continues to text. He has found yet another part-time gig where he currently lives. He says he has a few irons in the fire in my city. He hopes to be back here working and in school within the next couple of months. Again...silly little boys...<br /><br />Yo, actions speak so much louder than words! Yeah, it's a cliche, but a very true one!SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-45959158372391311422011-07-13T11:56:00.002-04:002011-07-13T12:02:12.698-04:00Sexy SongWhy not a sexy song from country music's sexiest couple?<br /><br /><iframe frameborder="0" width="480" height="359" src="http://www.dailymotion.com/embed/video/x97rk2"></iframe><br /><a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x97rk2_faith-hill-tim-mcgraw-lets-make-lov_music" target="_blank">Faith Hill & Tim McGraw - Lets make love</a> <i>by <a href="http://www.dailymotion.com/beni4ka" target="_blank">beni4ka</a></i>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-81825334921856246212011-07-11T16:06:00.002-04:002011-07-11T16:10:53.452-04:00Sober againHey! I'm sober now!! And I'm thinking much more clearly! Not much went on during the weekend. I got a new tattoo. It's a big ass tatt on my back, and it still hurts like a bitch! I heard from Ex-Coworker. It was his birthday yesterday, and now he has decided he wants to visit me as a birthday gift to himself. So it looks like I may have a nice little dick-down coming my way. Can't have him around without doing all that...way too good to pass up! <br /><br />Btw...I'm horny as all hell, but I'm afraid I've ruined the dick deliveries from Stalker. What the fuck was I thinking??SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-49905876427672151822011-07-07T23:17:00.003-04:002011-07-07T23:27:56.571-04:00Yep...I'm still drunk...so here's a song...<br /><br /><iframe width="425" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/b0bjM6dIQtc" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">One More Addiction</span> by Natalie Imbruglia<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">First the good news<br />It's gonna feel very nice<br />Then the bad news<br />You gotta pay a heavy price<br />Rip tide. We slide we ride on a deep forbidden sea<br />Under we go - so slow<br />And you're hanging onto me<br />And I say<br /><br />Oh Oh one more addiction in my world<br />Oh one more connection to let go<br />Oh floating down the river<br />Out of sight forever (From my world)<br />It's the only thing I know how to do<br /><br />I reject you<br />But I can't follow through<br />I'd forget you<br />But you'd end up tappin' on my back door<br />Somehow I lost myself in a tunnel long and black<br />Somewhere. At the end, I pretend<br />There's a way of turning back<br /><br />Oh Oh one more addiction in my world<br />Oh one more connection to let go<br />Oh floating down the river<br />Out of sight forever (From my world)<br />It's the only thing I know how to do<br /><br />Take a breath<br />Let it out<br />All the things you frown about are meaningless,<br />ofcourse unless, you're doing this for real I guess<br />I meant to but<br />I don't know what<br />Is in the way and could I say<br />Its you I bet<br />I won't forget<br />Maybe I'm not ready yet<br /><br />Oh Oh one more addiction in my world<br />Oh one more connection to let go<br />Oh floating down the river<br />Out of sight forever (From my world)<br />It's the only thing I know how to do.<br /><br />Oh Oh one more addiction in my world<br />Oh one more connection to let go<br />Oh floating down the river<br />Out of sight forever (From my world)<br />It's the only thing I know how to do.<br /><br />It's the only thing I know how to do.<br />It's the only thing I know how to do.<br />It's the only thing, the only thing that I<br />It's the only thing, the only thing that I<br />It's the only thing I know how to do.<br />It's the only thing, the only thing that I, know how to do.<br />'Cause I forget you.</span>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-29812952472333787732011-07-07T19:43:00.002-04:002011-07-07T19:50:02.632-04:00I can't do this...shit anymore. There I've said it. I took last year off from dating, thinking I just needed to take some time off. And now it's July...I've been open and willing to take chances for seven months now. I can't play the games and can't deal with the lies that go along with dating. I'm too honest, fragile, and lonely. There I said it. I'm tired of the disappointment after disappointment. I'm tired of the "excuses" and the bullshit and the baggage. Why can't people just say what's real? Do people even have respect for others anymore? Do they ever look deeper than the surface? Fuck it. I'm done with the whole process...I'll be the crazy fucking dog/cat lady who plays with her toys to get off. Humans don't seem to know how to connect anymore.<br /><br />P.S. I'm drunk.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-31320644269913174952011-07-07T14:43:00.005-04:002011-07-07T15:04:56.468-04:00Effed up again!As I've mentioned, I've allowed Stalker back into my life again. I told him and myself that I wouldn't get attached like I did last time. I do enjoy his company and the sex. We have a great time together no matter what we are doing. But intellectually I know that there is no future there. He won't allow it. Just as I said in my last post about the men from my past, they feel for me but won't allow anything deeper to progress past the casual.<br /><br />Stalker came over for taco and margarita night last night. Before the main course, we had a little appetizer...in my bed. We followed the dinner with a little dessert of chocolate syrup and dick. Then we went for round three...yeah, round three!! Wow...just wow is all I can say! It's addictive. I woke up late today, still thinking about it, and that's probably because I could still feel it in my vagina. I wanted more. But I know it's illegal to keep a man as your sex slave. <br /><br />I sent him an innocent enough text letting him know that he left his coupon books (don't ask) behind at my apartment. He asked if he could come by tonight and get them. Unfortunately, I'm meeting with the gays to plan a going away party for one who is moving away at the end of the month. So I suggested we go to a movie tomorrow night. Of course, he said he couldn't, because his weekends are "reserved for family time". I knew this, but for some reason it gets to me, and I continue to "test" him. I don't know why I do this to myself. It just brings back all the insecurities from two years ago when he was first in my life. I need to learn to relax and enjoy the moment. Instead, I started asking all these questions, which in turn, lead him to say I was getting "weird" and acting like we are a married couple. I told myself when he wanted back in my life that I wouldn't do this again...push for more than I know he can/will give. Part of it is that I'm jealous that he has family and I don't. It gets lonely when you're single and have no one to lean on.SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-35405040470660838552011-07-06T16:03:00.002-04:002011-07-07T02:19:29.587-04:00Sexy Song for Hump Day!Happy Hump Day!!<br /><br /><br /><iframe width="560" height="349" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/PCCGIXME164" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">Say Yes</span> by Floetry<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">[intro]<br />see i been watchin you for a while<br />your smile and stuff<br />but i dont know if i can be wit you for tonight alright<br />is that alright baby, baby<br /><br />[Verse 1]<br />There is only one for me<br />you have made that a possibility<br />we could take that step to see, um<br />if this is really gonna be,all ypu gotta do is say yes<br /><br />[Chorus]<br />all you gotta do is say yes<br />dont deny what you feel<br />let me undress you baby<br />open up your mind and just rest<br />i'm about to let you know you make me so<br />all you gotta do is say yes<br />dont deny waht you feel<br />let me undress you baby open up your mind and just rest i'm about to let you know<br />you make me so, so, so ,so ,so ,so,so,so<br />you make me so, so, so,so so, so ,so,so uh<br /><br />[Verse 2]<br />loving you has taken time (taken time)<br />but i always knew you could be mine<br />i recognize the butterflies inside me tonight(tonight)<br />all you gotta do is say yes<br /><br />[repeat chorus]<br /><br />[ad lib to end] </span>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-63423468753641283022011-07-06T12:28:00.005-04:002011-07-06T12:54:10.256-04:00Are Men Recyclable??<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEukM0WFEJFxKKbQvEF8TVi7XNEWDXXMf4xcZxkApRxypM2vwuTgKJ2EY2rFXP72NX8KEjfMSnvnC6kZbsTiL_nLG0VxCkzxXVjdjmsgCb_f_9SMyb97l1LdKFkN9-nCSAj_QAuwTsuxQ/s1600/i-m-100-recyclable-men-s-classic-tee_design.png"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 190px; height: 190px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhEukM0WFEJFxKKbQvEF8TVi7XNEWDXXMf4xcZxkApRxypM2vwuTgKJ2EY2rFXP72NX8KEjfMSnvnC6kZbsTiL_nLG0VxCkzxXVjdjmsgCb_f_9SMyb97l1LdKFkN9-nCSAj_QAuwTsuxQ/s400/i-m-100-recyclable-men-s-classic-tee_design.png" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5626283483978556514" /></a><br />So the last couple days have been interesting...interesting indeed. Four men from my past have contacted me...via text of course. Because who is actually brave enough to dial a woman's number after screwing her over?! <br /><br />First, there was Old Friend. I don't believe I've ever discussed him here before. He was a part of my life back in my 20's. We met online, then met in person, hated one another, had great sex once or twice, and have remained in contact on and off since then...yeah, for about 12 years. Old Friend has told me a couple times over the past few years that he believes that he and I are meant to be, but the timing has never been right. Yeah, I know...excuses, excuses. He currently lives about a 2 hour drive from where I live. This is all due to the fact that he has been unemployed. You see he has a journalism degree...not a good look in times of the world wide web. Anyone can be a journalist! So he has been working little part time gigs here and there but can't seem to find anything steady. He told me he has been expanding his search into other areas, and that he really wants to move back into my area. He also said once he has a steady job, he plans to be with me. Hmm...<br /><br />FWB has been a Facebook friend all this time, so we have kept tabs on one another via Facebook stalking. We shot a couple messages back and forth over the weekend. In the end, I went off explaining to him about how he disappointed me and that I had wanted and expected so much more. It was therapeutic in a way. It may not have affected him much, but I think it helped me. Yesterday, FWB sent me a text asking if I still want more from him. I laughed and asked if he was offering. He said, "yes, are you accepting?" He then went on to tell me that he is currently at the beach but didn't bother to let me know when he would return. I'm not sure how to take this.<br /><br />I awoke to a text from MatchMan this morning, telling me we need to talk and to call him when I woke up...duh...the text itself woke me! He wanted to explain to me why we were no longer friends on Facebook. He said his girlfriend had gotten in his account and deleted me. All I could say to this was, "Way to be a man and let your woman control you!" I won't deny that it hurt. I still and probably will always have a soft spot for MatchMan. We talked for a while and caught up. It was kind of awkward.<br /><br />ThugPassion was a man I also knew in my 20's, long before this blog was ever born. He and I had a little fling...that lasted over several years. There was obvious chemistry but little maturity on either of our parts. Neither of us communicated well, and we both had walls around us that hot sex couldn't pull down. I learned a few years back that he had gotten married. Yesterday, I logged into my messenger (which I hadn't used since about 2007), and he was on there! We had a nice little conversation and got a little closure to our old situation. He admitted he always has a thing for me but could never let himself go and love me. This seems to be a trend with me? Why has been so difficult for the men in my past to let go and be with me...truly be with me?SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7315688657745466258.post-85862989305526936082011-07-04T21:36:00.004-04:002011-07-04T21:46:36.422-04:00More Pity Please?So I was looking at my label list, which includes all the men I've mentioned in this blog. Of those men, most have moved on while I've been stuck in Singleland. Check out this list, alphabetically of course:*<br /><br />Doc- He is now engaged to a woman who doesn't live too far from me. I'm not quite sure when the wedding will take place.<br /><br />Ex-Coworker- He is now in a serious relationship.<br /><br />FWB- Also in a relationship. I found out that he and his girlfriend had a baby who died at birth a little over a year ago.<br /><br />KH- In a serious relationship...complete with cute little pics all over Facebook.<br /><br />MatchMan- In a serious relationship...<br /><br />PoPo- Serious relationship...possibly married<br /><br />Teacher Man- He is engaged and the wedding is scheduled to take place in a couple weeks.<br /><br />young coworker- Got married last November.<br /><br />So there you have it...maybe it wasn't them, but me.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">* Most of the below information was gained via Facebook stalking. Don't judge me!</span>SaneAndSinglehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07029359542769881457noreply@blogger.com1