As I've mentioned, I've allowed Stalker back into my life again. I told him and myself that I wouldn't get attached like I did last time. I do enjoy his company and the sex. We have a great time together no matter what we are doing. But intellectually I know that there is no future there. He won't allow it. Just as I said in my last post about the men from my past, they feel for me but won't allow anything deeper to progress past the casual.
Stalker came over for taco and margarita night last night. Before the main course, we had a little appetizer...in my bed. We followed the dinner with a little dessert of chocolate syrup and dick. Then we went for round three...yeah, round three!! Wow...just wow is all I can say! It's addictive. I woke up late today, still thinking about it, and that's probably because I could still feel it in my vagina. I wanted more. But I know it's illegal to keep a man as your sex slave.
I sent him an innocent enough text letting him know that he left his coupon books (don't ask) behind at my apartment. He asked if he could come by tonight and get them. Unfortunately, I'm meeting with the gays to plan a going away party for one who is moving away at the end of the month. So I suggested we go to a movie tomorrow night. Of course, he said he couldn't, because his weekends are "reserved for family time". I knew this, but for some reason it gets to me, and I continue to "test" him. I don't know why I do this to myself. It just brings back all the insecurities from two years ago when he was first in my life. I need to learn to relax and enjoy the moment. Instead, I started asking all these questions, which in turn, lead him to say I was getting "weird" and acting like we are a married couple. I told myself when he wanted back in my life that I wouldn't do this again...push for more than I know he can/will give. Part of it is that I'm jealous that he has family and I don't. It gets lonely when you're single and have no one to lean on.
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Thursday, July 7, 2011
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Ch-ch-ch-changes!
Yes, I have been neglecting blogland again. I have good reasons.
#1- I've been self reflecting. I need to make some changes in my life. I mean if I am not happy alone, how can I expect anyone else to be happy with me? My job eats away at my soul daily. Don't get me wrong...I do enjoy teaching kids. But it CONSUMES every bit of me...emotionally, physically, and mentally most of the school year. I'm not your average class room teacher. I am a special educator, and I love my kids. Sometimes that love leaves no room in my life for anyone else. So...I'm thinking a career change is in order for me to have a life beyond my work.
#2- I'm still absolutely head over heels in love...with my dog! All spare time goes to him and our adventures in the dog park and PetsMart! I still haven't met anyone of interest at the dog park. I take that back. I've met interesting people, just not ROMANTICALLY interesting. I meet very nice young couples and elderly ladies. And before you ask, yes we go to a couple different dog parks for some variety.
#3- I've injured myself yet again. I over slept last Wednesday and was running late for work. I pulled into the parking lot just as 1st period was beginning. In my rush to get into the building, I just fell face down onto the sidewalk. No, I didn't trip...I was walking and then I was splayed across the concrete, breaking my phone, my pen, and my ribs. I continued to work Wednesday and Thursday in pain. Finally, Friday breathing became almost unbearable. I let HR make me a doctor appointment (yay workers' comp!). The doctor put me on work restrictions, but my administration said that I couldn't perform my duties with those restrictions. And now I have a forced vacation until the doctor releases me to work again. My friend, Angel and Demon, says that God sent an angel to trip me so that I could have a mental vacation. Should've had that knee surgery last week, as originally planned, so I could at least collect short-term disability!
#4- I've not met any men from online or elsewhere. As a matter of fact, I haven't even cared to think about dating, or even sex. I must be sick!! It recently just dawned on me that I've had no man or sex drive for several months. I blame it all on #1!
#5- My damn blog has been attacked by spammers!! Every time I log in, I have crazy sex sites that have left comments as anonymous users! Has this happened to anyone else? How do I shake them off?
#1- I've been self reflecting. I need to make some changes in my life. I mean if I am not happy alone, how can I expect anyone else to be happy with me? My job eats away at my soul daily. Don't get me wrong...I do enjoy teaching kids. But it CONSUMES every bit of me...emotionally, physically, and mentally most of the school year. I'm not your average class room teacher. I am a special educator, and I love my kids. Sometimes that love leaves no room in my life for anyone else. So...I'm thinking a career change is in order for me to have a life beyond my work.
#2- I'm still absolutely head over heels in love...with my dog! All spare time goes to him and our adventures in the dog park and PetsMart! I still haven't met anyone of interest at the dog park. I take that back. I've met interesting people, just not ROMANTICALLY interesting. I meet very nice young couples and elderly ladies. And before you ask, yes we go to a couple different dog parks for some variety.
#3- I've injured myself yet again. I over slept last Wednesday and was running late for work. I pulled into the parking lot just as 1st period was beginning. In my rush to get into the building, I just fell face down onto the sidewalk. No, I didn't trip...I was walking and then I was splayed across the concrete, breaking my phone, my pen, and my ribs. I continued to work Wednesday and Thursday in pain. Finally, Friday breathing became almost unbearable. I let HR make me a doctor appointment (yay workers' comp!). The doctor put me on work restrictions, but my administration said that I couldn't perform my duties with those restrictions. And now I have a forced vacation until the doctor releases me to work again. My friend, Angel and Demon, says that God sent an angel to trip me so that I could have a mental vacation. Should've had that knee surgery last week, as originally planned, so I could at least collect short-term disability!
#4- I've not met any men from online or elsewhere. As a matter of fact, I haven't even cared to think about dating, or even sex. I must be sick!! It recently just dawned on me that I've had no man or sex drive for several months. I blame it all on #1!
#5- My damn blog has been attacked by spammers!! Every time I log in, I have crazy sex sites that have left comments as anonymous users! Has this happened to anyone else? How do I shake them off?
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Free of Blog-Blockers
Since I was so suddenly interrupted by Bookstore Boy while writing my last blog, I'm adding another to continue my original thoughts.
What was I saying? Oh, I can't imagine sex with anyone else except Stalker. I said it eleven hours ago, and I still believe it! I'm not going to get into the details right this moment, but I have spent four evenings with Stalker since his return from the "ex's" state. None of those evenings have resulted in a slumber party or any sexual fun. Actually, most of those times have been quite strained and tense. I'm not really sure what's going on anymore. I don't know if he has lost all feelings for me or if he is going out of his way to resist temptation. I do know that I still want him...maybe more than ever. It pains me to be with him and not know what he is thinking or feeling. But I don't want to lose him from my life either, even if as just a friend. Stalker hurt his knee last week, playing softball. He was still in pain tonight when he joined me and a girlfriend for bowling. I just wanted to reach out and hold him. I know this makes no sense. Not much has lately. I just know that I feel so much more for him than even I thought I did. I now realize that Stalker had awakened parts of me that I thought had died or at least had become numb. I want to nurture him, to cook (what tha???) for him, and to be with him all the time. The feeling is so strong it almost creeps me out!
E-Harmony update: It sucks! Most of my matches don't fall into my age and/or height requirements. What's up with all the old short men?? Yeah, they need love too, but I can't reach down and give it to them!
Today just after my girlfriend and I got settled into our little spot at a different bookstore, Bookstore Boy showed up and made himself at home. Again, he blog-blocked me! And he just wouldn't go away. At one point when my friend excused herself to go to the restroom, he grabbed my thigh and told me he wants to see me again...alone. Ewww...creepy!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Can't Get Away!
It's been a week and a half, and I miss Stalker's caress, kiss, the weight of his body on mine, and the thrills and chills I felt as he would grind slowly and deeply inside me. I may go out with other people, but I honestly can't imagine having sex with anyone else. Stalker has set the bar, and that bar is high, my friends!
Oh damn, Bookstore Boy is here! And I'm even in a different bookstore!!
Oh damn, Bookstore Boy is here! And I'm even in a different bookstore!!
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Intervention
Stalker and I spoke again last night. He has cut me off from my addicktion. No more sex. He said he needs to clear his mind and figure out what he wants. That's pretty much all the conversation boils down to. He isn't back together with his "ex". He isn't having sex with either of us (so he says). He just wants to step away from the physical and clear the cloudiness in his head. So yeah...still no answers and now no sex...
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Happy Birthday Stalker
Sigh. So this was the dreaded weekend. Stalker's birthday weekend with the "ex". He is still with her. I've heard nothing from him since Thursday night when he sent me a text to let me know he made it there safely. Wow! Yeah, so now all I can think about every night is him wrapped around her instead of me. I didn't realize how difficult this weekend would be. I sent him a text earlier today saying happy birthday, and of course, I got no response. Sigh.
For those of you wondering how the rest of our talk went on Tuesday night, here goes. He came over to spend the night. The talk took place as we were lying in bed. I again told him that I didn't want him to go. He explained that this weekend was about he and the "ex" deciding what they were going to do. The conversation then moved to his feelings about me. I asked him when he realized he felt for me as more than a friend. He said it was when my grandfather died. He said he noticed that he constantly worried about how I was feeling and how I was handling it. He knew then that he had crossed the friend line, because he just wanted to comfort me. He went on to describe how being with me was like a "breath of fresh air" and that he didn't know he could feel this way about someone else. It confused him, because he thought he was supposed to be with "her". He knew that he crossed the line when he wanted to see me all the time, if only for a few minutes. So he knew before I did really! I came right out and asked Stalker if he really wants a relationship with his "ex". His response? "I don't know." Uh duh! Shouldn't that be a clue??? He then said that he needs to talk to her about it this weekend. I then asked if he wanted what was going on between me and him to end, and he told me no. Again....duh! Next I asked what will happen to us if he gets back together with her. He said, "I guess we will have to go back to being friends." I said, "Is that what you want? Could you do that?" He said, "It would suck, but it's what we would have to do if I'm in a committed relationship." Um...wow!! All I could say is "Do you even hear yourself? You practically admitted you don't want the relationship!" We talked a little more, but the conversation basically went in circles with no real answers. He doesn't know what he wants. He said he just wants everybody to be happy. Um...buddy...someone is going to be unhappy in the end. That's the ugly part of a love triangle. To make matters worse, Stalker's car wouldn't start on Wednesday morning, so I had to take him to work, making me extremely late to my job! His dad brought him over to get his car during his lunch. I still wonder what he told his dad about where he spent the night before.
Since I had the sinking feeling that I was going to be the unhappy one, I decided to make his last sexual experience with me one he would never forget. Stalker came by my place after work on Wednesday evening. I met him at the door in a sexy black and green nightie with no panties. I had the candlelight and LOTR playing on the TV. I pulled him into my apartment and undressed him while I let my lips and tongue wonder all over his body. I led him to the couch, sat him down, got on my knees and gave him a BJ he will never forget. Just before he was about to cum, I straddled him and rode him until he was about to explode. He told me that was his favorite "nookie time" with me ever. This is the first and only time we neglected to use a condom and he didn't pull out. Let's pray that my BC pill really does work! I've never tested it!
After we laid around in the after-orgasm glow, it was back to reality. Stalker had to meet "her" mother to get some things to take to "her" for her new apartment. Isn't that nice of him to travel all that way to take "her" things for his birthday weekend? I wonder if "her" mother could smell me on him...
Before you all start with the comments, yes I know you may think I disrespected myself, but I wanted to enjoy Stalker one last time before this weekend. I do have hopes that he comes back and wants to try things with me, but I am realistic...as sad as that makes me.
In other news...when I went out with some girlfriends last weekend, I met a new guy. We will call him Mr. International. He is obviously a foreigner to this country. He seemed like a nice guy, and we talked for quite a while. I gave him my number. I figured if nothing else, he may be a good distraction from Stalker, as you all know I've been looking. On Wednesday just when I thought I wouldn't hear from him, I received a text asking me if he could call me after 7:00 when he got home. I told him sure and I was looking forward to talking to him. Uh...he called at 10:45. And yeah, I was already asleep. Really not a good time for a first conversation when you are a school teacher! The next day I texted him to let him know I was already asleep. So....he tried again on Thursday night....at 10:00!! Really??? Not much better. Again, I was already asleep. You would think he would catch on, right? So Friday, he called at 12:45 in the afternoon. Hello???? I'm a teacher!!! Can't chat during class! By now, I was already irritated. When I listened to his voicemail, he suggested we get together on Saturday. Unfortunately, I was headed out of town to visit my BFF. I sent him a text to let him know I would be out of town for the weekend. So sometime Friday night I guess he thought it would be a good idea to call again. He left a voicemail saying that he hopes I like talking on the phone. He also said it's okay that I went out of town. I'm not real sure what to think of that statement, as he said it like I had asked his permission! So far Mr. International is off to a rocky start.
For those of you wondering how the rest of our talk went on Tuesday night, here goes. He came over to spend the night. The talk took place as we were lying in bed. I again told him that I didn't want him to go. He explained that this weekend was about he and the "ex" deciding what they were going to do. The conversation then moved to his feelings about me. I asked him when he realized he felt for me as more than a friend. He said it was when my grandfather died. He said he noticed that he constantly worried about how I was feeling and how I was handling it. He knew then that he had crossed the friend line, because he just wanted to comfort me. He went on to describe how being with me was like a "breath of fresh air" and that he didn't know he could feel this way about someone else. It confused him, because he thought he was supposed to be with "her". He knew that he crossed the line when he wanted to see me all the time, if only for a few minutes. So he knew before I did really! I came right out and asked Stalker if he really wants a relationship with his "ex". His response? "I don't know." Uh duh! Shouldn't that be a clue??? He then said that he needs to talk to her about it this weekend. I then asked if he wanted what was going on between me and him to end, and he told me no. Again....duh! Next I asked what will happen to us if he gets back together with her. He said, "I guess we will have to go back to being friends." I said, "Is that what you want? Could you do that?" He said, "It would suck, but it's what we would have to do if I'm in a committed relationship." Um...wow!! All I could say is "Do you even hear yourself? You practically admitted you don't want the relationship!" We talked a little more, but the conversation basically went in circles with no real answers. He doesn't know what he wants. He said he just wants everybody to be happy. Um...buddy...someone is going to be unhappy in the end. That's the ugly part of a love triangle. To make matters worse, Stalker's car wouldn't start on Wednesday morning, so I had to take him to work, making me extremely late to my job! His dad brought him over to get his car during his lunch. I still wonder what he told his dad about where he spent the night before.
Since I had the sinking feeling that I was going to be the unhappy one, I decided to make his last sexual experience with me one he would never forget. Stalker came by my place after work on Wednesday evening. I met him at the door in a sexy black and green nightie with no panties. I had the candlelight and LOTR playing on the TV. I pulled him into my apartment and undressed him while I let my lips and tongue wonder all over his body. I led him to the couch, sat him down, got on my knees and gave him a BJ he will never forget. Just before he was about to cum, I straddled him and rode him until he was about to explode. He told me that was his favorite "nookie time" with me ever. This is the first and only time we neglected to use a condom and he didn't pull out. Let's pray that my BC pill really does work! I've never tested it!
After we laid around in the after-orgasm glow, it was back to reality. Stalker had to meet "her" mother to get some things to take to "her" for her new apartment. Isn't that nice of him to travel all that way to take "her" things for his birthday weekend? I wonder if "her" mother could smell me on him...
Before you all start with the comments, yes I know you may think I disrespected myself, but I wanted to enjoy Stalker one last time before this weekend. I do have hopes that he comes back and wants to try things with me, but I am realistic...as sad as that makes me.
In other news...when I went out with some girlfriends last weekend, I met a new guy. We will call him Mr. International. He is obviously a foreigner to this country. He seemed like a nice guy, and we talked for quite a while. I gave him my number. I figured if nothing else, he may be a good distraction from Stalker, as you all know I've been looking. On Wednesday just when I thought I wouldn't hear from him, I received a text asking me if he could call me after 7:00 when he got home. I told him sure and I was looking forward to talking to him. Uh...he called at 10:45. And yeah, I was already asleep. Really not a good time for a first conversation when you are a school teacher! The next day I texted him to let him know I was already asleep. So....he tried again on Thursday night....at 10:00!! Really??? Not much better. Again, I was already asleep. You would think he would catch on, right? So Friday, he called at 12:45 in the afternoon. Hello???? I'm a teacher!!! Can't chat during class! By now, I was already irritated. When I listened to his voicemail, he suggested we get together on Saturday. Unfortunately, I was headed out of town to visit my BFF. I sent him a text to let him know I would be out of town for the weekend. So sometime Friday night I guess he thought it would be a good idea to call again. He left a voicemail saying that he hopes I like talking on the phone. He also said it's okay that I went out of town. I'm not real sure what to think of that statement, as he said it like I had asked his permission! So far Mr. International is off to a rocky start.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
"The Talk" Follow-up
Thursday after "the talk" I didn't hear too much from Stalker. We didn't engage in our usual text convo during the work day. We did exchange a couple texts trying to decide what we were doing for dinner. So when I was driving home, I oh-so-surprised to receive this:
k. I stay the night tonight. maybe wine and something quick and easy after softball game.
I really thought he would pull away to let all my feelings and other babble marinate and to think on things. So I picked up a rotisserie chicken and some sides from the local grocery along with some wine. The side dishes had just been completed when Stalker arrived at my place in softball uniform, laden with his over-night necessities. He didn't have a hand free to hug me, so instead he kissed me hello. Well, that was different! Once settled, we made our plates, put in a DVD and got cozy on the couch. After eating, Stalker took a quick shower. We were watching LOTR, and he has seen it a dozen times. Once he returned to the couch, he took my feet in his lap and commenced to rubbing. The wine went to my head and I couldn't make it through the movie, so we decided to hit the sheets. We discussed my upcoming move next month, as we were getting ready for bed. He told me that there was no need to hire movers, and that he and his brother would do it if I rented the truck. Again, I was caught by surprise! Not only did he commit to doing something for me, but I also get to meet a family member!? I thought, "Wow! Now we're getting somewhere!"
I wasn't too tired for some sensual nookie! Again, it was amazing and left us both speechless. We fell asleep entwined and woke the same way when the alarm went off. Of course, I had to have more before work. It's too good, and I'm enjoying it while I have it. He left for work before I did, as he was going by Verizon to get his anticipated Droid phone. He assured me that I would receive the very first text from his fantasy phone. He again kissed and hugged me goodbye and was on his way.
k. I stay the night tonight. maybe wine and something quick and easy after softball game.
I really thought he would pull away to let all my feelings and other babble marinate and to think on things. So I picked up a rotisserie chicken and some sides from the local grocery along with some wine. The side dishes had just been completed when Stalker arrived at my place in softball uniform, laden with his over-night necessities. He didn't have a hand free to hug me, so instead he kissed me hello. Well, that was different! Once settled, we made our plates, put in a DVD and got cozy on the couch. After eating, Stalker took a quick shower. We were watching LOTR, and he has seen it a dozen times. Once he returned to the couch, he took my feet in his lap and commenced to rubbing. The wine went to my head and I couldn't make it through the movie, so we decided to hit the sheets. We discussed my upcoming move next month, as we were getting ready for bed. He told me that there was no need to hire movers, and that he and his brother would do it if I rented the truck. Again, I was caught by surprise! Not only did he commit to doing something for me, but I also get to meet a family member!? I thought, "Wow! Now we're getting somewhere!"
I wasn't too tired for some sensual nookie! Again, it was amazing and left us both speechless. We fell asleep entwined and woke the same way when the alarm went off. Of course, I had to have more before work. It's too good, and I'm enjoying it while I have it. He left for work before I did, as he was going by Verizon to get his anticipated Droid phone. He assured me that I would receive the very first text from his fantasy phone. He again kissed and hugged me goodbye and was on his way.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Filling in the Gaps
I thought I would share some other random boy news with you guys...just little tidbits not necessarily worthy of whole entries.
Ex-Coworker and I are back on good terms, although it took a while after I met MatchMan. He wasn't too keen on the idea of me canceling our plans in favor of another man, but when you won't commit those are the chances you take, right? So yeah, we talk occasionally and had even started planning a weekend to meet up again. Then my grandfather passed away and kinda foiled those plans for now. It's probably for the best anyway. I'm pretty sure that's a dead-end road, as far as anything substantial. He does continue to send me interesting pics via text though.*
Oh, and dear, sweet, lovable, distant, and cocky RM. Just when I think he is gone for good, he resurfaces. A few weeks ago, I made plans for a little nookie with Stalker to take place on a hump day**. While at work that afternoon, good ol RM sent a text asking how I was doing. I told him all was well, except the stress of work. He then proceeded to ask if he could come hang out with me that night...translation..."I'm horny and want to get nekkid with you!" I told him that I had plans that night, and his response was "Cancel! The girls will understand if you stand them up for a good dick down!" Oh my...I literally laughed out loud when I read that! Really?? If only he knew that I was turning him down for a better-bodied, better-dicked, 10-year his junior sexy thang! It truly amazes me just how good he thinks he has it. I mean the sex was good, but his attitude and conceit kills it all.
RM contacted me again*** just after I returned from my grandfather's funeral and told me he was there if I need him. For some reason, I doubt that. Fast-forward to today...I received a text from RM, and then the following conversation took place.
RM: Thinkin bout u. Sayin hello! Make a great Fri...
Me: Hello to you too! How are you?
RM: Hangin...been better but its fri. U?
Me: I'm living...
RM: Smile while u do it! U need help smiling....I will try
Me: Just what are you proposing?
RM: Nothin particular. Just offering to make u smile!
Me: Uh huh...I'm sure you had something in mind...
RM: Actually not this time. Concerned bout u. Know u having rough time w/grandfather death
Me: Yeah. Work has been rough too. What do you have going on this weekend?
RM: Fall fest tonight. Game tomorrow. Football banquet sunday. Nxt wkend Im free though.
Me: What is fall fest? Have 2 halloween parties next week if you wanna put on your costume!
RM: School fall festival. Trick or treat
Me: Guess that means you don't wanna put on your costume?
RM: Nooo thx. lol
Me: Well I invited you to parties. Doubt I'll dress up myself.
RM: Golf nxt sat am. Parties when?
Me: Sat nite
RM: Well we do fri nite. lol
Me: Don't worry about it.
RM: U dont want to get together fri nite?
Me: Well I did ask you to halloween parties
RM: Dont do halloween...not my thang. Sorry
Me: Not about halloween...about hanging out together...what I would like to do. You know friends are supportive like that...
RM: True so fri nite
Me: No. I just said I would like you to go to parties with me. That is what I would like. But you are too selfish just to give a little I guess.
RM: Not selfish. I dont do halloween & wouldnt have a good time. Just honest
Me: Sure u r. Everything always has to be on ur terms. They are just parties where ppl will be drinking and playing games. But it's cool...
RM: Wow sorry u feel that way
So yeah, what do you think about that convo?
MatchMan called and texted last week. He wanted to see me this past weekend, but I just couldn't do it. He told me he just wanted to see me, hug me, and hold my hand. I just don't feel emotionally available to him.
And you know I couldn't go without mentioning Stalker. He left yesterday, driving the U-Haul for his "ex" and her big move. I did receive a text from him..."I made it safely". I was surprised to get even that. Stalker told me on Wednesday night that he would return sometime today (Friday). I have yet to hear from him, but then I'm not surprised by that.
* oh so naughty!
** What better day for nookie??
*** Again...just when you least expect him!
Ex-Coworker and I are back on good terms, although it took a while after I met MatchMan. He wasn't too keen on the idea of me canceling our plans in favor of another man, but when you won't commit those are the chances you take, right? So yeah, we talk occasionally and had even started planning a weekend to meet up again. Then my grandfather passed away and kinda foiled those plans for now. It's probably for the best anyway. I'm pretty sure that's a dead-end road, as far as anything substantial. He does continue to send me interesting pics via text though.*
Oh, and dear, sweet, lovable, distant, and cocky RM. Just when I think he is gone for good, he resurfaces. A few weeks ago, I made plans for a little nookie with Stalker to take place on a hump day**. While at work that afternoon, good ol RM sent a text asking how I was doing. I told him all was well, except the stress of work. He then proceeded to ask if he could come hang out with me that night...translation..."I'm horny and want to get nekkid with you!" I told him that I had plans that night, and his response was "Cancel! The girls will understand if you stand them up for a good dick down!" Oh my...I literally laughed out loud when I read that! Really?? If only he knew that I was turning him down for a better-bodied, better-dicked, 10-year his junior sexy thang! It truly amazes me just how good he thinks he has it. I mean the sex was good, but his attitude and conceit kills it all.
RM contacted me again*** just after I returned from my grandfather's funeral and told me he was there if I need him. For some reason, I doubt that. Fast-forward to today...I received a text from RM, and then the following conversation took place.
RM: Thinkin bout u. Sayin hello! Make a great Fri...
Me: Hello to you too! How are you?
RM: Hangin...been better but its fri. U?
Me: I'm living...
RM: Smile while u do it! U need help smiling....I will try
Me: Just what are you proposing?
RM: Nothin particular. Just offering to make u smile!
Me: Uh huh...I'm sure you had something in mind...
RM: Actually not this time. Concerned bout u. Know u having rough time w/grandfather death
Me: Yeah. Work has been rough too. What do you have going on this weekend?
RM: Fall fest tonight. Game tomorrow. Football banquet sunday. Nxt wkend Im free though.
Me: What is fall fest? Have 2 halloween parties next week if you wanna put on your costume!
RM: School fall festival. Trick or treat
Me: Guess that means you don't wanna put on your costume?
RM: Nooo thx. lol
Me: Well I invited you to parties. Doubt I'll dress up myself.
RM: Golf nxt sat am. Parties when?
Me: Sat nite
RM: Well we do fri nite. lol
Me: Don't worry about it.
RM: U dont want to get together fri nite?
Me: Well I did ask you to halloween parties
RM: Dont do halloween...not my thang. Sorry
Me: Not about halloween...about hanging out together...what I would like to do. You know friends are supportive like that...
RM: True so fri nite
Me: No. I just said I would like you to go to parties with me. That is what I would like. But you are too selfish just to give a little I guess.
RM: Not selfish. I dont do halloween & wouldnt have a good time. Just honest
Me: Sure u r. Everything always has to be on ur terms. They are just parties where ppl will be drinking and playing games. But it's cool...
RM: Wow sorry u feel that way
So yeah, what do you think about that convo?
MatchMan called and texted last week. He wanted to see me this past weekend, but I just couldn't do it. He told me he just wanted to see me, hug me, and hold my hand. I just don't feel emotionally available to him.
And you know I couldn't go without mentioning Stalker. He left yesterday, driving the U-Haul for his "ex" and her big move. I did receive a text from him..."I made it safely". I was surprised to get even that. Stalker told me on Wednesday night that he would return sometime today (Friday). I have yet to hear from him, but then I'm not surprised by that.
* oh so naughty!
** What better day for nookie??
*** Again...just when you least expect him!
Thursday, October 22, 2009
This is it!
I was looking back at some of my older entries and came across this one. This is sex with Stalker! Hehe...turns out I had the words to describe it after all!
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Epiphany!!!
I have come to the realization that while I prefer men sexually, I don't actually enjoy talking to most of them! For instance, I came into the usual bookstore haunt today after work only to find Bookstore Boy there, working on a paper. OMG! His conversations are so dry and stale, even though he is quite attractive in his own way. Thank goodness that Stalker was entertaining me via text. Yeah, I know it was rude, but I also knew that Bookstore Boy would never taste the sweetness of this cookie when I discovered he was homophobic. I mentioned my gay BFF, and I thought he was going to run out of the bookstore! He told me he could never be around me while I was with my gay BFF, and that, my dear bloggers, is a definite turn-off! Other than that, it is more like a chore than a pleasure to think of what to say to him. I mean, the conversation doesn't just flow with back and forth witty banter, like the conversations I have with Stalker. When we are around each other, it's electric*! There is an automatic smile on my face whenever he is around, and we are rarely at a loss for words, as silly as they may be at times. I forget all my worries and problems when he is around. Stalker radiates positivity in what has been a dark world lately. So whether what we are doing is right or wrong, I want it while it exists.
That electricity also makes for some of the best sex EVER!! Yeah, I said it...EVER! I can't get enough of him deep inside me...it's slow, sensual, and dare I say it...meaningful?! Does that even make sense? I'm not even sure how to describe it...I just know that I can't get enough of it.
So back to the Bookstore Boy...he delayed my updating of this blog with his presence. I came to the bookstore just to work on the blog, and there he sat with me blog-blocking for an hour and a half. Then Stalker came by the bookstore** after Bookstore Boy left. Looks like I may have to find a new blog spot!
* Yeah, I know it's cliche!
** "to see your face and hear your voice," said Stalker
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Addickted
Nope...it's not a typo! I am adDICKted...to Stalker's body, dick, oral tricks, and sensual touch. More about all that later. Let me tell ya about the day he planned for us yesterday, since we couldn't actually make it out of town for the weekend.
He wanted to treat me to a stress relief weekend, since so much has been going on in my life, both personally and professionally, lately. It began Friday night with popcorn, candy, and wine while watching movies. Of course, sex soon followed. After a few hours of sleep, we woke at 6:00 AM and headed out of the city and into the mountains. We had a HUGE breakfast* and then went horseback riding. We took the river route, so we got to ride the horseys through the water! This was sooo exciting to me, because I had never even touched, much less straddled, a horse before. After horseback riding, we stopped for hot chocolate and started back toward the city. Once back at my place, he treated me to a full-body massage**, which led to more mind-boggling sex. At one point Stalker expressed that he had never felt anything like it. I agreed that it does get better and better each time. It's becoming like a fucking drug!
While Stalker went home for an hour or so to shower and change clothes, I rested my now well stretched and achy legs, then got in the shower and changed clothes myself. When he picked me up, we headed out to two haunted houses. It has been years since I went to a haunted house! Such fun...
Bet you can't guess how the night ended?? Uh huh...another fix for my adDICKtion...
* a restaurant/chalet that literally brings the whole breakfast buffet menu to your table!!
** Stalker was going to treat me to a real spa massage, but we couldn't get a last minute appointment.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sexy Song of the Week
Wanted by Jessie James:
Hoo hoo hoo..
I wanna lie in my bed
And do nothing
I don’t care what anyone says
I got you on my mind
Thinking about one thing
Gonna show you how I do it best
Put my lips on your mouth
Keep you comin around
Cus I like it
Put your hands on my hips
Take me down
Sink this ship
Boy I can’t resist
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And its hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Those other guys when they call
I might answer
But you’re the one I’m thinking bout
So baby don’t disappoint
Just move faster
And show me what you’re feeling now
Put your lips on my mouth
Keep you comin around
Cus I like it
[ Jessie James Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Nothings wrong
It’s so right
Got permission from me tonight
So turn off the lights
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And it’s hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Now I’m going crazy
I’m tired of waiting
My lips are on fire
I just want you to know
I’m losing my patience
For the time that you’ve wasted
Put your lips on my mouth
Put your lips on my mouth
Put your lips on my..
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And it’s hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Have I mentioned just how good sex with Stalker is? If not, it is delicioso! He was over at my place three nights straight after I returned from the funeral. I decided to give a well-deserved break for the next couple days. ;-)
Hoo hoo hoo..
I wanna lie in my bed
And do nothing
I don’t care what anyone says
I got you on my mind
Thinking about one thing
Gonna show you how I do it best
Put my lips on your mouth
Keep you comin around
Cus I like it
Put your hands on my hips
Take me down
Sink this ship
Boy I can’t resist
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And its hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Those other guys when they call
I might answer
But you’re the one I’m thinking bout
So baby don’t disappoint
Just move faster
And show me what you’re feeling now
Put your lips on my mouth
Keep you comin around
Cus I like it
[ Jessie James Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Nothings wrong
It’s so right
Got permission from me tonight
So turn off the lights
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And it’s hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Now I’m going crazy
I’m tired of waiting
My lips are on fire
I just want you to know
I’m losing my patience
For the time that you’ve wasted
Put your lips on my mouth
Put your lips on my mouth
Put your lips on my..
I wanna wear my hair up in a mess
Cut off jeans, can you get with that?
Give you something like you’ve never had
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
I wanna tease you till you’re begging me
And you’re on your knees
And it’s hard to breathe
And every other time is just a memory
Cus I only wanna be wanted by you
Have I mentioned just how good sex with Stalker is? If not, it is delicioso! He was over at my place three nights straight after I returned from the funeral. I decided to give a well-deserved break for the next couple days. ;-)
Monday, October 5, 2009
Ain't No Sunshine...
This past weekend I watched Sunshine Cleaning. I don't know how many of you have seen it, but it left me speechless. And I'm not sure I meant that in a good way. I got it because I thought it would be a fun little dark comedy, but it wasn't. It was dark, almost too dark. Well hell, it was like real life!
These lines spoken by Rose, Amy Adams's character, hit waaaay too close to home for me... "There's not a lot that I am good at. But I'm good at getting guys to want me. Not date me, or marry me, but want me." I have expressed this thought in so many words to friends of mine, but this character summed it up quite nicely. Men rarely want to stay in the "friend zone" with me, nor are they ever "at a place in life for a relationship".* What is it about some women that makes them fall into this category? What makes us undesirable for marriage and/or long term relationships? And before you answer that it could be the way we dress or carry ourselves, please be aware that I am more conservative in my dress than most single women I know. I believe there is a way to be sexy without seeming trampy. I am not a fan of flaunting excessive skin. I don't talk dirty**, nor do I have a reputation for giving it up on the first night. I do like to have fun and laugh, trying not to pressure anyone into anything they don't want. Men have often told me I'm "like one of the guys, but sexier". Um yeah, ok...
Anywho...MatchMan is officially a thing of the past. I'm done for good. Really. Nothing new took place between us. He told me he loves me,***but he can't be the man he needs to be for me. No shit, Sherlock! I figured that out a while back! What took his slow ass so long?
As for Stalker, he is still hanging around. We like to bowl together. And yeah, the tension is gone, because I broke my promise to myself and to you guys. I gave him a taste of the cookie, and he likes it. Yeah, yeah, please no speeches. I'm very aware that it probably wasn't the best decision I've ever made, but let me say it all started with a little too much Jack Daniels in both our systems one Friday night. I was lonely...he was lonely, and now neither of us can get enough. I'm just enjoying it for what it is. Blame it on my inner Cougar.
*conveniently!
**most of the time
***yeah, ok whatever
These lines spoken by Rose, Amy Adams's character, hit waaaay too close to home for me... "There's not a lot that I am good at. But I'm good at getting guys to want me. Not date me, or marry me, but want me." I have expressed this thought in so many words to friends of mine, but this character summed it up quite nicely. Men rarely want to stay in the "friend zone" with me, nor are they ever "at a place in life for a relationship".* What is it about some women that makes them fall into this category? What makes us undesirable for marriage and/or long term relationships? And before you answer that it could be the way we dress or carry ourselves, please be aware that I am more conservative in my dress than most single women I know. I believe there is a way to be sexy without seeming trampy. I am not a fan of flaunting excessive skin. I don't talk dirty**, nor do I have a reputation for giving it up on the first night. I do like to have fun and laugh, trying not to pressure anyone into anything they don't want. Men have often told me I'm "like one of the guys, but sexier". Um yeah, ok...
Anywho...MatchMan is officially a thing of the past. I'm done for good. Really. Nothing new took place between us. He told me he loves me,***but he can't be the man he needs to be for me. No shit, Sherlock! I figured that out a while back! What took his slow ass so long?
As for Stalker, he is still hanging around. We like to bowl together. And yeah, the tension is gone, because I broke my promise to myself and to you guys. I gave him a taste of the cookie, and he likes it. Yeah, yeah, please no speeches. I'm very aware that it probably wasn't the best decision I've ever made, but let me say it all started with a little too much Jack Daniels in both our systems one Friday night. I was lonely...he was lonely, and now neither of us can get enough. I'm just enjoying it for what it is. Blame it on my inner Cougar.
*conveniently!
**most of the time
***yeah, ok whatever
Sunday, September 6, 2009
I've been a bad, bad blogger...
Hey y'all! I apologize for the delay. I've had internet issues, and I've gone back to work in the last month. Please do forgive me! So I have a lot of catching up to do...
MatchMan is out of jail now and has been for about 3 weeks. Unfortunately, he lost his job while locked up. He has been frantically searching and has even had some interviews, but no job offers! Needless to say, he has fallen into a deep depression. Oh, what a strain on a new relationship! I'm not sure where we stand, and I can't seem to bring myself to leave either. He hasn't exactly been the nicest guy and definitely not the same guy I first met. It's all understandable. I don't think I would be Susie Sunshine if I'd been locked up and lost my means of survival.
He's told me he doesn't want to get too attached to me because he is afraid he is going to go right back to jail. Okay, so I guess I should share why he was there to begin with at this point. It has to do with child support. There's no need for specifics, but if he doesn't find another job (like yesterday!) he's going right back next month. So yeah, there is tension.
In other man news, there's a new one hanging around. During one of my and MatchMan's recent arguments a couple weeks ago, I went to a friend's apartment to visit. Conveniently, her man-neighbor was having a little gathering of other menses and throwing some meat on the grill. One of the bbq goers struck up a little conversation with my girlfriend and me. This young man (yes, young!) was quite the charmer....mmmmm good too! I had a little alcohol in my system, and I was in super-hyper-flirt gear! This young'n told me I looked like a friend of his, and he wanted to take a picture of me and send it to some guy. Being the smart lady that I am, I explained to this hot little young thang that I wasn't in picture-taking form (I looked a hot mess because I had been out running around all day!), and I would send one from my cell to his. Yeah, genius way to get the digits...
So all this guy had after that night was my first name, my cell number, and my place of employment. So how did he find me on Facebook the next day? From hence forth, he shall be called "Stalker".
And in further news, FWB has been trying to get back in the picture. I'm feeling weak! As much as I care for MatchMan, I do have needs. I know how selfish that sounded, but it is true. Right now, I'm not sexually and/or emotionally fulfilled.
Monday, July 20, 2009
If it wasn't for bad luck....
I'd have no luck at all. I have decided that RM is a controlling, narcissistic, arrogant bastard. I know you're thinking, "What the hell took you so long to figure that out?" I guess I just had to learn the good old-fashioned way....that would be the HARD way! Again, we had a text convo a few days ago, during which he wanted to share his views on where he stood on relationships (not that it really mattered to me). He was explaining that he never asked about other guys because of his "confidence". When I asked what he meant, I received this response.
RM: If I was ready 4 a relationship, u would be w/me. Period. That being said, he got u. I will continue my quest 4 another homie, lover, friend as u call it lol
That surpasses confidence into the area of arrogance! Really?? I wanted to say "You aren't that damn hot motherfucker!" But I bit my tongue (uh, texting finger??) and just gave him a "Is that right?" instead. He went on to tell me that he just wasn't ready to jump right into a relationship, to which I responded, "I never asked you to." This next text was so fucking cheesy, I had to end all communication!
RM: Well drop the zero. Get w/a hero & meet me ur place tomorrow. Do some makin' up & movin' forward! How bout all day & night lovin'. Not fuckin' as u call it.
All I could do is laugh at that one! As for me calling it fucking, yeah I do! I call it what it is. If it's just fucking, that's exactly what I call it!
As for MatchMan, last Sunday night was the night for consummation. Yep, we did the dirty and it was goooood. Too bad he went to jail Tuesday afternoon! Yeah, you read that right, no need to back up. MatchMan is in jail for the next 30 days. I would rather not get into why, because that is his personal business. He isn't some hardened murderer or anything. He did make some mistakes that anyone could have fallen victim to. That is all I'm going to say about it. So yeah, we officially had the talk and became exclusive on Sunday night, and by Tuesday night, he was locked up. What tangled webs, huh?
RM: If I was ready 4 a relationship, u would be w/me. Period. That being said, he got u. I will continue my quest 4 another homie, lover, friend as u call it lol
That surpasses confidence into the area of arrogance! Really?? I wanted to say "You aren't that damn hot motherfucker!" But I bit my tongue (uh, texting finger??) and just gave him a "Is that right?" instead. He went on to tell me that he just wasn't ready to jump right into a relationship, to which I responded, "I never asked you to." This next text was so fucking cheesy, I had to end all communication!
RM: Well drop the zero. Get w/a hero & meet me ur place tomorrow. Do some makin' up & movin' forward! How bout all day & night lovin'. Not fuckin' as u call it.
All I could do is laugh at that one! As for me calling it fucking, yeah I do! I call it what it is. If it's just fucking, that's exactly what I call it!
As for MatchMan, last Sunday night was the night for consummation. Yep, we did the dirty and it was goooood. Too bad he went to jail Tuesday afternoon! Yeah, you read that right, no need to back up. MatchMan is in jail for the next 30 days. I would rather not get into why, because that is his personal business. He isn't some hardened murderer or anything. He did make some mistakes that anyone could have fallen victim to. That is all I'm going to say about it. So yeah, we officially had the talk and became exclusive on Sunday night, and by Tuesday night, he was locked up. What tangled webs, huh?
Saturday, May 16, 2009
And now, for something completely different!
Well, not really...
Ex-coworker has decided to resurface. He never actually went anywhere, but sometimes our communication is more sporadic than others. He has been texting me again...almost to the point of "sexting". It really is too bad that he doesn't live closer, because the thangs that man can do to make me quiver...sigh. He has a vacation planned in July to go visit family, so he is taking a road trip. Guess what?! He will be driving right through my city to reach his destination. We have decided that he will stop and hang with me for the weekend on his way up and again the next weekend on his way back home. So it looks as if Ex-coworker will be my date for whatever July 4 celebratory Jack Daniels drinking in which I will partake.
Oh yeah, he sent me a text this AM telling me would make a mixed CD for me...how 8th grade is that?? So adorable, really.
Ex-coworker has decided to resurface. He never actually went anywhere, but sometimes our communication is more sporadic than others. He has been texting me again...almost to the point of "sexting". It really is too bad that he doesn't live closer, because the thangs that man can do to make me quiver...sigh. He has a vacation planned in July to go visit family, so he is taking a road trip. Guess what?! He will be driving right through my city to reach his destination. We have decided that he will stop and hang with me for the weekend on his way up and again the next weekend on his way back home. So it looks as if Ex-coworker will be my date for whatever July 4 celebratory Jack Daniels drinking in which I will partake.
Oh yeah, he sent me a text this AM telling me would make a mixed CD for me...how 8th grade is that?? So adorable, really.
Monday, March 16, 2009
Blasts from the Past
I apologize for my long absence again! I have done absolutely no dating until recently. And the recent dates have been recycled ones.
First, there was RM, whom I first met 12 years ago. Yeah, you read correctly....12 years ago. He has a habit of disappearing and reappearing every couple years. We met up for lunch a couple weeks ago. Lunch turned into margaritas. Margaritas turned into a movie. And a movie turned into making out on my couch! All in all, it was a nice day. For some reason though, since then we haven't been able to connect due to schedule conflicts (read "he has kids"). So yeah, that's where that stands. It's the same old tune it's been since I first met him.
Next, there is PoPo, the sexy cop. I've known him for about 5 years. He does the disappearing act like RM. PoPo and I went out with some friends of mine last Saturday. Large amounts of alcohol were consumed, and needless to say I remember very little about the last couple hours of the night. I do know he spent the night, and there was no damn nookie!! I curse Aunt Flow!!! So, yeah...I'm still sexless.
Thirdly, another man I met about 10 years ago has called me again. He says he would like to see me again and try to reconnect. We have been chatting occasionally for the last month or so, but we have yet to see one another again. He currently lives about 3 hours away. So again...we shall see...
And lastly, that damn FWB has resurfaced! No, I haven't seen him, but he continues to call. I continue to ignore.
More updates coming soon! I'm trying to get back in the writing mood.
First, there was RM, whom I first met 12 years ago. Yeah, you read correctly....12 years ago. He has a habit of disappearing and reappearing every couple years. We met up for lunch a couple weeks ago. Lunch turned into margaritas. Margaritas turned into a movie. And a movie turned into making out on my couch! All in all, it was a nice day. For some reason though, since then we haven't been able to connect due to schedule conflicts (read "he has kids"). So yeah, that's where that stands. It's the same old tune it's been since I first met him.
Next, there is PoPo, the sexy cop. I've known him for about 5 years. He does the disappearing act like RM. PoPo and I went out with some friends of mine last Saturday. Large amounts of alcohol were consumed, and needless to say I remember very little about the last couple hours of the night. I do know he spent the night, and there was no damn nookie!! I curse Aunt Flow!!! So, yeah...I'm still sexless.
Thirdly, another man I met about 10 years ago has called me again. He says he would like to see me again and try to reconnect. We have been chatting occasionally for the last month or so, but we have yet to see one another again. He currently lives about 3 hours away. So again...we shall see...
And lastly, that damn FWB has resurfaced! No, I haven't seen him, but he continues to call. I continue to ignore.
More updates coming soon! I'm trying to get back in the writing mood.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Neglect
I know you all feel that I have been neglecting you, but I've really been neglecting myself. I haven't been on a date nor had a naughty episode since I frollicked with Hot Stuff. I've been going through some personal and financial changes, but I'll be up and dating again soon!
Friday, January 23, 2009
Slackin' on Da Sexy...
Yeah, so I've been slacking on the sexy songs of the week! I'm gonna give you a few now...
Hey Pretty (Drive-by Remix) by Poe
Sex (I'm a...) by Berlin (Yeah...the 80's were sexy!)
Feel the fire, feel my love inside you so bright
There's the sound and the smell of love on my mind
I'm a toy, come and play with me, see it work now
Wrap your legs around me, ride me tonight
I'm a man - I'm a goddess
I'm a man - Well I'm a virgin
I'm a man - I'm a blue movie
I'm a man - I'm a bitch
I'm a man - I'm a geisha
I'm a man - I'm a little girl
And we make love together
Slip and slide, when you wait you like to feel the blood flow
Not too fast, don't be slow, my love's in your hands
I'm a man - I'm a boy
I'm a man - I'm your mother
I'm a man - I'm your one night stand
I'm a man - I'm a bi
I'm a man - I'm your slave
I'm a man - I'm a little girl
And we make love together
Skin to skin, oooh oooh! Honey hold tight
Come inside, it's a passion play just for you
Let's get lost in the magic place all alone now
Drink your fill from my fountain of love, wet your lips
I'm a man - I'm a teaser
I'm a man - I'm a virgin
I'm a man - I'm a one night stand
I'm a man - I'm a drug
I'm a man - Well I'm your slave
I'm a man - I'm a dream divine
And we make love together
I'm a man - I'm a goddess
I'm a man - I'm a hooker
I'm a man - I'm a blue movie
I'm a man - I'm a slut
I'm a man - Well I'm YOUR babe
I'm a man - I'm a dream divine
And we make love together
And we'll make love together
Gett Off by Prince!! :)
How can I put this in a way so as not 2 offend or unnerve?
But there's a rumor goin' all around that U ain't been gettin' served
They say that U ain't "U know what" in, baby, who knows how long
It's hard 4 me 2 say what's right when all I wanna do is wrong
CHORUS:
Gett off – 23 positions in a one night stand
Gett off – I'll only call U after if U say I can
Gett off – Let a woman be a woman and a man be a man
Gett off – If U want 2, baby, here I am (Here I am)
I clocked the jizz from a friend of yours named Vanessa Bet (Bet)
She said U told her a fantasy that got her all wet (Wet)
Something about a little box with a mirror and a tongue inside (Yeah)
What she told me then got me so hot, I knew that we could slide (Ooh)
CHORUS
Gett off {repeat in BG}
1 2 3
Naw, little cutie, I ain't drinkin'
But scope this, I was just thinkin'
U + me, what a ride
If U was thinkin' the same, we could continue outside
Lay your pretty body against a parkin' meter
Strip your dress down like I was strippin' a Peter Paul's Almond Joy
Lemme show U, baby, I'm a talented boy
Everybody grab a body
Pump it like U want somebody
Gett off
So here we, so here we…
So here we are, here we are in my paisley crib
What cha want 2 eat? (Ribs!)
Naw toy, I don't serve ribs
U better be happy that dress is still on
I heard the rip when U sat down
Honey, them hips is gone
But that's alright, I clock 'em that way
Remind me of somethin' James used 2 say
"I like 'em fat, I like 'em proud
U got 2 have a mother 4 me"
Now move your big ass 'round this way
So I can work on that zipper, baby
2night U're a star and I'm the Big Dipper
Na, na, na, na {x2}
(Kick it)
(Gett off) {repeat in BG}
How can I put this in a way so as not 2 offend or unnerve?
But there's a rumor goin' all around that U ain't been gettin' served
They say that U ain't "U know what" in, baby, who knows how long
It's hard 4 me 2 say what's right when all I wanna do is wrong
Gett off – 23 positions in a one night stand
Gett off – I'll only call U after if U say I can
Gett off – Let a woman be a woman and a man be a man
Gett off – If U want 2, baby, here I am
Come on
Hey Pretty (Drive-by Remix) by Poe
Sex (I'm a...) by Berlin (Yeah...the 80's were sexy!)
Feel the fire, feel my love inside you so bright
There's the sound and the smell of love on my mind
I'm a toy, come and play with me, see it work now
Wrap your legs around me, ride me tonight
I'm a man - I'm a goddess
I'm a man - Well I'm a virgin
I'm a man - I'm a blue movie
I'm a man - I'm a bitch
I'm a man - I'm a geisha
I'm a man - I'm a little girl
And we make love together
Slip and slide, when you wait you like to feel the blood flow
Not too fast, don't be slow, my love's in your hands
I'm a man - I'm a boy
I'm a man - I'm your mother
I'm a man - I'm your one night stand
I'm a man - I'm a bi
I'm a man - I'm your slave
I'm a man - I'm a little girl
And we make love together
Skin to skin, oooh oooh! Honey hold tight
Come inside, it's a passion play just for you
Let's get lost in the magic place all alone now
Drink your fill from my fountain of love, wet your lips
I'm a man - I'm a teaser
I'm a man - I'm a virgin
I'm a man - I'm a one night stand
I'm a man - I'm a drug
I'm a man - Well I'm your slave
I'm a man - I'm a dream divine
And we make love together
I'm a man - I'm a goddess
I'm a man - I'm a hooker
I'm a man - I'm a blue movie
I'm a man - I'm a slut
I'm a man - Well I'm YOUR babe
I'm a man - I'm a dream divine
And we make love together
And we'll make love together
Gett Off by Prince!! :)
How can I put this in a way so as not 2 offend or unnerve?
But there's a rumor goin' all around that U ain't been gettin' served
They say that U ain't "U know what" in, baby, who knows how long
It's hard 4 me 2 say what's right when all I wanna do is wrong
CHORUS:
Gett off – 23 positions in a one night stand
Gett off – I'll only call U after if U say I can
Gett off – Let a woman be a woman and a man be a man
Gett off – If U want 2, baby, here I am (Here I am)
I clocked the jizz from a friend of yours named Vanessa Bet (Bet)
She said U told her a fantasy that got her all wet (Wet)
Something about a little box with a mirror and a tongue inside (Yeah)
What she told me then got me so hot, I knew that we could slide (Ooh)
CHORUS
Gett off {repeat in BG}
1 2 3
Naw, little cutie, I ain't drinkin'
But scope this, I was just thinkin'
U + me, what a ride
If U was thinkin' the same, we could continue outside
Lay your pretty body against a parkin' meter
Strip your dress down like I was strippin' a Peter Paul's Almond Joy
Lemme show U, baby, I'm a talented boy
Everybody grab a body
Pump it like U want somebody
Gett off
So here we, so here we…
So here we are, here we are in my paisley crib
What cha want 2 eat? (Ribs!)
Naw toy, I don't serve ribs
U better be happy that dress is still on
I heard the rip when U sat down
Honey, them hips is gone
But that's alright, I clock 'em that way
Remind me of somethin' James used 2 say
"I like 'em fat, I like 'em proud
U got 2 have a mother 4 me"
Now move your big ass 'round this way
So I can work on that zipper, baby
2night U're a star and I'm the Big Dipper
Na, na, na, na {x2}
(Kick it)
(Gett off) {repeat in BG}
How can I put this in a way so as not 2 offend or unnerve?
But there's a rumor goin' all around that U ain't been gettin' served
They say that U ain't "U know what" in, baby, who knows how long
It's hard 4 me 2 say what's right when all I wanna do is wrong
Gett off – 23 positions in a one night stand
Gett off – I'll only call U after if U say I can
Gett off – Let a woman be a woman and a man be a man
Gett off – If U want 2, baby, here I am
Come on
Monday, January 19, 2009
Dry Spell
Like I said in my last blog, I've been in the moving process. That has kept me rather busy, and I have yet to finish packing! It doesn't help that I got the DVR when I moved. Now I come home from work every night to watch several episodes of What Not to Wear! I love, love, love that show!
So between the move and the the DVR love affair, I've had little dating time! I did manage to hang out with Hot Stuff last weekend. YUMMY!! I was a bad, bad girl, and I liked it! I hope to be bad with him again very soon. Now remember, Hot Stuff is not boyfriend material, but he does make quite a lovely toy!
KH didn't bother to call me after New Year's. He had volunteered to help me move that weekend, but I didn't hear from him until the day after the move. Well, actually I texted him and said, "Well, I'm all moved in! Guess you were too busy to help." Yeah, I know...I shouldn't have bothered with him or the sarcasm. He replied, "I didn't call because I thought you would be mad." I asked why he thought that. He said, "I didn't feel like moving." *Sigh* Who needs a man like that?? Hell, a couple of my friends' husbands helped me without any payment. I mean this guy can't even be my friend apparently.
I think I'll just keep my standing date with my DVR.
So between the move and the the DVR love affair, I've had little dating time! I did manage to hang out with Hot Stuff last weekend. YUMMY!! I was a bad, bad girl, and I liked it! I hope to be bad with him again very soon. Now remember, Hot Stuff is not boyfriend material, but he does make quite a lovely toy!
KH didn't bother to call me after New Year's. He had volunteered to help me move that weekend, but I didn't hear from him until the day after the move. Well, actually I texted him and said, "Well, I'm all moved in! Guess you were too busy to help." Yeah, I know...I shouldn't have bothered with him or the sarcasm. He replied, "I didn't call because I thought you would be mad." I asked why he thought that. He said, "I didn't feel like moving." *Sigh* Who needs a man like that?? Hell, a couple of my friends' husbands helped me without any payment. I mean this guy can't even be my friend apparently.
I think I'll just keep my standing date with my DVR.
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